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Saturday, May 31, 2008, 11:49 PM
get alive./
lazy todaystayed at home
and other than sleeping, i did nothing
yes i woke up at 11 and slept from 1 to 6
cool eh
coz i was too lazy to get lunch
and was hungry
best way is to slp.
-.-
woke up
dad came home
went to ikea.
had some speg and soup/
got some brown paper and went home
the car ride so long
came back
mom broke the zip of the jacket i lend her
and she still sounded like it was all my fault for not maintaining the good condition for the jacket
oh god, dun expect me to lend anything to her again.
lx leaving for taiwan tmr
dad din even allow me to apply, he said it was too ex.
oh wadeva
at least i am gg overseas this year end with my frens
and its free. happy?
sian, frens gg overseas.
i am staying in spore.
so patriotic, like i havent even leave this island(not even to sentosa) for like5 years
haha-.- so wondering, why i din share the same birthday as char.
but anyway, any trips for me wun be fun
no siblings.
with dad or mom nth would be fun.
ok, and changin of furniture
i can conclude that nothing in my room will move with dad around.
this one not good
by the time he finds somehting good
i dun even think i need that thing anymore
if only ikea was abit nearer.
11:23 AM
boredom.
holidays,1 month
and so fast 1 week is over.
havent done much for the past 1 week
just some homework
and a little brush up on my amaths.
a little camp prep
and i seriously need my printer to be repaired
sian,
now, its raining cats and dogs.
and i'm so lazy to even step out of the house
and after eating smth that iam not suppose to,,
haiz
regrets,
think i going to bathe and go out with frens later
so super sian to stay at home and face the com.
dad says his gonna get me psp. cheers
haha.
ok go bathe now!
soyarana!
Tuesday, May 27, 2008, 6:39 PM
time./
woke up in the morningmom went off rather early for m'sia
and i'm all alone, cheers
haha
met sj at 930
both of us were late.
tgt
and she forgot she had the maths thingo
omg.
waited for her for like TWO AND A HALF HOURS?!
lols
did flag design
read bk
and chatted with fionn
then went to kfc to eat
discussed bout agm
thought it was too cold
so went back to sch and discussed
lols
the breeze is so nice=)
thought
iron out ideas
and we were still OUT OF IDEAS
ok forget it
ideas will come when they want to
so now lets just wait for them to come lols
haiz.
but i think i gonna start to hav meeting and to type out proposal soon
or else there would be a lack of time!
ok
heres a short video that we did last year!
they wrote shijia's name wrongly
and i din even recieve my cert-.-
anyways enjoy!
Monday, May 26, 2008, 6:53 PM
shut up/
over slept todaysry fionn
and sry to char and viv for waiting for me
so sry.
headed down toboonlay to buy camp stuff.
ate and bought finish the stuff,
went back sch and cut cloth.
lols took such a long time
and we ended up playing monopoly spongebob edition
haha.
camp is coming soon
and homework yet to complete.
hmm
better plan my timetable well!
hmm rather shortpost
bb
a blog is for me to express my views dun like it shut up and leave there is no need for u to judge me and u have no rights to u shd be glad i din put ur ip here sicko. u are such a funny person. u say reading my post all on complaining then u still read?! what kind of rubbish is that and thanks you just gave me a topic to blog on. this is my blog of coz i blog abt my life lah u think i so free go and analyse every single person what they do what problems they face and put it here? u crazy ar. if u think i nvr blog abt u then u feel left out then u go and set up your own blog and post lah what's wrong with u? talk also talk until so blunt./ haiyo. anyway also noone call u come read my blog if u come here just to see me complain than u are just wasting your time anyway a blog is just for me to type and record what i hav done and gone through and all this has totally nothing to do with u u read it out of your pure curiousity and pls mind what u say, although i really dun mind but other ppl might do and thats the reason why i seldom tagged unless to say hi or some encouragements and even if i think the person is terrible i also wun leave a tag scolding the person leaving a tag like this only goes to show that u don;t care about how other ppl feels and u are invading my rights of blogging so shut up and leave make sure i dun see u at my blog again haha i feel like laughing at your state tagging and getting suaned by me haha thats what i do dun like it leave or you are invading my rights again and YOU DO NOT HAVE THE RIGHT TO DO SO
Sunday, May 25, 2008, 9:00 PM
cherish today like there's no tomorrow
the earthquake came without warning,without signs, it striked sichuan
not only that and its neighbours too.
when faults occur and earth's building crumble
many died and scenes made us stumble
stories of many so determined to survive
it made us reflect of how we treated life
mother's love that saved the child
to see them once more for their smile
even those who lost whom they loved
volunteered themselves to save others too
16 schools destroyed
they could not avoid
many students died holding their pens
wanting to write the last line with their very own hand
their determination made them live
but over 60 thousand cannot be revived
cherish today like theres no tomorrow
we would not know what will fall upon
live the best of today
and strive for tomorrow
don't regret
learn to cherish
9:11 AM
choices have consequences
the choices so hard to makewith every move i make, a contradicting answer
mom and dad have been continuosly urging me not to get so involved in things
but seriously, maybe i just don't know how to manage time properly/
things coming in june, not just some things but tons and dozens of things
in another month or so, we are going to take over
not only council, the sec 3s, in CCA or any other aspect
we might seem more than prepared to take over
but once we take over, we have double the work and double the trouble.
and i can tell u my trouble would be mostly from the academics side
that why i say
its so contradictive
if this holidays
i study hard and achieve good grades.
and neglect camp prep and stuff,
nvm i can't bring myself to heck care bout teh things that i am trusted with to complete
its not possible.
and at this very point of time, my parents are really not understanding
as a student we have to care about EVERY aspect that we are some how or another involve in.
and even if i ald tried to tell them , i have ald opted myself out of the choir part
they are still.
why can't they understand more
bcoz of that one subj
i recieve no encouragements for the others that i have improved in.
even for those subj that i have been constantly failing.
to them, i am nvr good enuf/
in any aspect
in every aspect
i know that there is always room for improvement
but now they take wadeva that i am doing for the council, for star, for choir, service to the school
as nothing at all
and still at the end of the day
to be practical
that piece of paper with the number of As on it that count
all the contribution we made to the school
would be gone
without that piece of paper
some people can excel in EVERYTHING
but i can't
when i excel in an area i tend to neglect another
time is tight
and hate to stay at home
coz i cannot ge the peace and quiet that i want
ok so, dun blame me if i come home late
or wadeva
and seriously to choose between sch and home.
i will choose sch/
Saturday, May 24, 2008, 8:14 AM
i'm counting my days/
no doubt holidays are here ald.but, the gazillions of homework
plus camp prep
plus camp
plus AGM]
you can jolly well say that
have no hols at all.
relax. haha as if i hav time for that
and the chocolate part
sry i cant live without them
they are called stress relievers
haha/
super sian
and a duper long day ahead,
gotta plan my hols scheldule closely
perhaps i wun follow but making it makes me feel a lil comforted?
fine wadeva.
self comforting - its enuf
the tons of homework
and plus the fact that i counldnt catch up with work ald.
Friday, May 23, 2008, 9:10 PM
its all in the mind?
this morning photo taking was//messy
but all in all it still went well. as in ppl were rather cooperative i can say/
went back to class to slack
really slacked
then mrloh came in with report bks.
didn;t expect mine to turn out so great
and finally thanks to all my chocolate eating
acceptable weight.
wow i was like 99th in level
HOW GREAT
and i shd really minus off those ppl who failed el.
they really did well/
unlike me ok.
then suppose to meet mskoh
then mrloh say got smth for the class.
heh celebrate all ppls birthday from jan till june
thanks!
i haven't blown candles for years.
and the cake is nice
sent a piece of cake as an apology to save us from being slaughtered
bleah.
went to lend tablet to do the slc design.
and slept in scrm for like 2-3hrs/
shiok.
meet the parents totally horrible
i alwasy hated it though i din fear it.
and thank mr loh's punctuality, so that i could conduct my breifing with the usherers/
meet for bout 1hr, i thought its suppose to be 15 mins?!
ok usher and than went to makan with fellow ushers.
dad fetched me home=)
and I HATE AMATH
A dditional mathematics
M akes
A cademics
T otally
H orrible
yeah man u shd agree
horrible
and this june is so tight for me
i better go plan my stuff now.
P.S i give up on my amaths. its hopeless-.-
and i really cannot take it ald
what i am doing i am aware.
u will nvr understand how i feel
all the things that i have gone through
this is the best solution i can find for myself
its not that i have terrible time management
but if i don't do this and let my thought wonder
i wouldn't be who i am today
when u all did those things
i didn't understand
and even if i can i wouldn't like too
it will only make things more complicated for everyone.
and less trouble, less stress
wadeva i know i will keep to myself.
what happened in the past and now its totally two different thing
why i want to do certain things
u will never understand
i need peace with everyone
being communicator in the house is very tiring
and i cannot take it anymore
i hate it when one party calls and the other wants to know the contents of the conversation
i hate to repeat myself
furthermore
they call me urgently for things not urgent at all
they want to take me out
when they are free
if i dun acc them
the other party also come in and tok
i want to alleviate myself from all this trouble.
its too much than a 15 year old can handle
and yet, the ppl whom i told all this couldn't seem to help
ppl around me are not sensitive enuf to sense that smth isn;t right
esp those in the house
sey i hav my own frens and my own freedom.
i do not want to stick with u ppl always
i am 15 ald.
i know wad i am doin
i am aware of my thots.
u dun understand me.
AT ALL
dun think that all of u are so great for doing all those things that u have been doing for me
in my heart, u are just another stranger
i dun look up to u
u created a permanent scar in my heart
and now its still bleeding
each they when i go to bed,
my tears roll down my pillow.
i am not asking for perfection
but i just want things to be normal
but now its too late.
and i don't care so much ald
wadeva that u try to do
its too late
when i nid u most
u were not there for me
so dun expect me to be there for u when u nid me
sry, but i can't bring myself to it.
the reason that i stay in the world
is to create my own future
and not let my nxt generation, go through wad i gone through
i hate it.
my life is like a drama serial
just in reality.
sometimes, i can't stop myself frm comparing
why am i the odd one out.
why are others so perfect
ok maybe not perfect just the norm
why mus i be so special
ppl who haven't gone through
u wun understand
forget it./
Wednesday, May 21, 2008, 7:25 PM
headache!
lols i hate to wear the new specs#1 so heavy as compared to the previous one
#2 its giving me a headache
#3 i sweari am geting a new pair soon and lighter ones too
ok done with the specs part
ok post exam starting from yesterday have been so boring...
and i wan to thank those ppl who gave me belated birthday gifts and cards=)
thx.
going through papers are like !#%#$^#
so boring.
ok fine. a step to improve but then its like SO BORING
and some of my subj are really goner ald.
meeting today.
me and char so shocked
suddenly all the i/c and events come to us
not one by one
at one go..
ok
slc grouping also out
yesh i got an easy name!
ferrari F50!
haha fionn and shijia, all the best
and char, weiyang and the other 2
all the best for camp i/cs
and for me agm, i don't want to totally wipe out gavin's idea
but i will change the committees, well some how or another.
and this friday,
pray, hope, fingers crossed my mom is not gg to come.
well wadeva.
i am somewhat meeting the requirement but then in another way, not.
so pls i want to do ushering
and yesterday just recieved some stupid donation card.
and i just donated some money for the sichuan thingo.
and i would rahter donated for that
than fill up 1/6 of my donation card.
yes the ppl there needs it more than that national day walkathon. ohpls
hearing many sad stories. i think i would feel guilty if i din help at all.
even if i cannot rush there and help them, i would do my lil part on the donation. a lil help goes a long way right?
ok wadeva
after sch.
so sry char, it wun happen again.
promised.
talked about some friendship issues again
ok they are always occuring
i think to kepp a friendship going its really a two party thing.
i seldom get in to quarrels with ppl
even if i am angry with that person i wun tell directly.
and if everyday i dun tolerate nonsense and forgive wadeva
i would hav a long queue of problems to settle on top of the originals. ok
lets say, rather to hav another load off, than to take another rite?
hmm, don't take friendship quarrels so seriously.
both parties forgive and make sure the same thing dun happen again
and if u are in the wrong
then apologise loh
everyone makes mistakes
well its not that hard to say sorry
went to ec and track/
lols i din know it was so ______ until
some ppl had to put ______ in mail?!
lols funny leh, wan then come and take frm me?
i will giv one lah
i am not so____
haha open-minded=)
the world is imperfect and also unfair
so i am willing to share my opinions acc to my poi
fairness, nothing is fair and it cannot be achieved unless u are doing SPA
ok..
if the world was fair
the earthquake would not soley happen in sichuan and myanmmar
it would really shake the earth man.
but then when we think again, an earthquare's happening is also a chance for us imperfect humans to reflect and think
living in singapore. somehow or another at a very interesting geoglogical place on the map, we are rather safe,
its a blessing and we shd really learn how to appreciate and cherish things ard us
cherish it while they are still around, u nvr noe wad might happen some day.
oh how great i'm finally imputing some punctuation in my blog post
ok nvm. forget it
talking back abt results ,
hmm, did i fair well. i dun think so
and i bet ms koh's gonna slaughter me.
the 3/5s are doing fantastically well and we are on the other extreme?
haish. life like that.
at least i did my part to star in one or another aspect.and processing
not saying that that will affect my results
but hey i'm just abit slow in thinking thats all
in processing and absorbing
ok that was a long post.
for those who have read sorry for taking ur time=)
Monday, May 19, 2008, 6:49 PM
sian.
once againHAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF!
haha
haiz i knew it, even before the day comes.
i knew that they will be tired like siao, and only left rach to acc me.
haiz.i understand nvm
thanks rach for evtg/
esp. that slice of cake, i haven't eaten birthday cake for 3 yrs ald. thx
love u loads/
went to the central area today
ate waffles for lunch, abit weird but.
then went to shop around.
then go pop central, they were playing birthday song, and rach sang it to me, haha thx/
(p.s i din ask for the birthday song k.)
went to bugis to get some stuff.
and homed.
my day sounds boring but. well it always does. esp on my birthday.
i can tell u last year, almost the exact same thing happened
ok gtg out and makan.
swensens=). thx dad
thx mom for angpao
thx jr, rach, fionn, char, agnes, sj, filbert, weiyang, shaoying for bithday wishes
thx sj char and fionn for my lil vibrating pal
thx fionn for giant white toblerone
thx rach for pencil case, cake, card and song
thx janice for keychain and card
haha ppl thx for evtg
bb!
10:03 AM
15, finally
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! and SHAOYING!haha, actl, i dun really feel alot on this birthday
everyone's practically so tried after the camp.
buti'm not
i can slp like tmr during class or wadeva lah
how can i slp on my birthday, its only once a year!
coming to be 15 makes me feel a lil grown up.
having i/c, and all that
i'm like a lil adult in the making.
well, mom woke up to cook some noodles for me
and my lovely peach ice jelly!
love them
haha
its quite nice to have ur birthday on a public holiday eh.
yes, when a big half of the population is resting.
yes THAT INCLUDES ME
NO SCHOOL!
yesh, like how many ppl can get their b'daes on public holiday, yes charmaine, i noe u getthat every year.
well let me just enjoy today.
and prepare myself for the whole disastous week ahead.
Tuesday- check scripts. flow out, and choir hand in star ppt/ gotta be nice and bombastic.yeah(gotta do itlater-.-)
WEdnesady - star and piano.
Thurday - presentation to mstham and some HODs/ oh god, save me
Friday - choir again i suppose/
bless me/
so today can RELAX
and do some stupid star project/
ok gtg bb blog later=)/
Sunday, May 18, 2008, 6:43 PM
11 month and 30days old..
16 maytotally disastrous
looking a my results
haha
i think my ranking inclass would be like er... thirty plus forty?
terrible
A2 SS/His
B3 Chi
B3 Phy
B4 Hcl
C5 Geo
C5 E Math
C6 El
C6 Chem
F9 A Math
wad a wonderful range of numbers.-.-
and alphabets.
then after sch
during that short short time
so many things happened
fine lets skip that.
went for camp.
the loft@94 is so nice=)
haha
better than my hse seriously
trainers were funny.
then we did the Mbti assesment. i am an ENTP.
E - extraversion
N - iNtuition
T - thinker (also known as straightforward, or otherwise, heartless)
P - perceiver
ok the E part sometimes i really like i am an I lah.
i dunno.
but it came out as i have predicted so,
wadeva i dun care
haiz
camp was so tiring
slept at idunno/
i dun think i want to elaborate on the camp
overall not bad lah quite fun
but for most of the camp i am an I
rather than an E
tmr is vesak day
public holiday
yeahs
ithink everyone would be so tired.
than slp
i'm gonna slp for one day.
gd bye ppl
sayorana
Thursday, May 15, 2008, 9:27 PM
sry but i am just too bored.
the stupid questionaire1) At what age do you wish to be married?.24
2) If you were to be stranded on a deserted island, who are the 3 buddies you'd take and why?.
F.Y.S.C.R sure can survive one. we are die-die-tgt kind
3) Where is the place that you want to go the most?.anywhere out of s'pore
4) If you can have 1 dream come true, what would it be?.peace
5) Do you believe you can survive without money?.u think leh, unless all the things free loh
6) What are you afraid to lose the most?.myself
7) If you win $1 Million, what would you do?.keep half, nxt half giv charity or sch.
8) If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?.sry, i haven't met any i love yet
9) List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.haha no one tagged me?
10) What is your dream GIRL/BOY?.love me, listening ear, no smoking, no beer, no gambling
11) What kind of person do you hate the most?ppl who only know how to study.( no offence)
12) If you are given the chance to go back to the past and make a difference, will you?.YES! i dun want to be in this world, thx.
13) Unconditional Love, what does it means to you?.not afraid to correct your mistakes
14) Any wisdom to share with your readers? cherish every now and then, yesterday cannot be edited, today cannot be repeated, tomorrow cannot be edited.
15) If there's ever a war(or things that are similar) happening in your place, are you going to move to a safer place or fight?.war. family feud?. i am going to runaway from reality/
16) If you have the chance, which part of your character you would like to change?. talking so much -.-
17) Who is the person that you can share all your problems with?.haven found one yet.
18) What's your weakest point?.too lame.
19) Think of the person who tagged you to do this quiz. What song do you relate him/her to?.-.-
20) What is the one thing you regret most?.joining_________
21)Name people who you want them to do this question. FSC plus rachel
9:00 PM
bach to the future.
yes and after gg bloghoppingseems like everyone is more or less rather concern abt their results
but actl the results are quite reflected on each subj teacher's face
lols met mr sam that day
and i think both my e and a maths can die ald
also saw mrs chong
ok i think geog can get enough to pass lah
now at this sec 3 level
i just wish to PASS EVTG
but seriously i dun think i did
met msong today.
haiz chem, another killer
i think my MYEs are killing me.
yes and i got killed by them instead of the other way round
i killed the time part
not the marks part
but it know eve if i thourouly check my paper
i still wun edit
i know. if i know means i noe
if not i really dun know
i can stare at the qns for like half an hour
and yes i can afford to do that
i complete my paper
way before the time ends.
and nevertheless i still dunno wad the qns wants
i can crap
but it dun always works
lols it only does for lit actl.
just giv me one A, i would be contented.
one is better than none
well they all rhyme, all on the same plane only depends onwhich angle you are getting
the congrats u passwed with flying colour. or try harder you failed
the worlds between these two lies in the fate of tmr
good lucks to all
i shall not post until 18 MAY
8:00 PM
with love.
MY VIBRATING BUDDY TOTORO!
morning late.
sry rach
really sorry
i told u not to overslp and i did
and thx mom for waking me up at 5.40 this morning-.-
haiz
so sry rach
then bused to shengshiong mac to eat
haha
saw some teachers there takingaways
then went to sch for star
HALF AN HOUR EARLY!
god
sat outside the staffrm.
waiting for the explorers lab to be opened
glad that sj wasn't late
and she came with such a huge paper bag seald with insulation tape
she said it was for her mom-.-
lols the session was OK lah.
abit boring thats all,
presented and blah
the trainers said i gave them a very comfortable feeling-.-
lols.
totally-.-
then went to agape to help mom look at some chairs
ok din hav the one she liked.
too bad
bused to JE
Fionn dear got me a huge bar of toblerone
thanks alot love ya.
then mrt-ed to commonwealth
and bused to ikea with rach,sj,fionn and char
goodness what on earth happened to IKEA?!
it was rather run-down
and i swear that IKEA tampines is ten x better
goodness
din get anything
too angry
and its so hard to find the things that i want.
sad
was so hungry.
went to get some hotdogs
saw some rather inconsiderate ppl with incredible mass.
lols
than while eating
the few of the couldn't stand it and decided to reveal the contents of sj's mom's paper bag
ya sj din noe ur mom liked totoro as well-.-
thank you sj, char and fionn for that fat vibrating totoro!
so cute.
THANKS
- ALOT
i know i was shouting at teh shopkeeper holding it yesterday but i din expect that u would get it for me
and sj, since when did u hav such wonderful decieving skills ar
haha jk lah
but i really believed her and din suspect anything lols
this year all the thingos so rush
i dun even feel the birthday feeling.
then went to queensway shopping centre
finding fbts
lols din find the $7 one
then went to the intersports shop
while sj and char were looking at their beautiful slippers
rach and i were admiring the cool deuter bag but its like $83 bucks leh
so ex
we liked the same bag but diff colour
yes we shall save to that target
haha
got fbts finally fionntan was complaining hah
got the grey one
than went to macs
so terrible my experiment with coke and ice cream coz total destruction
so sry
to shijia char and rach and also fionn thx for helping me save totoro
and my choc.
ha
then they went off leaving me and rach
went in more circles
but i still hav no idea of the shopping centre plan.
lols
dad came sent rach home and went for dinner
argh
tmr hav camp!!!!
and i haven started packing leh
how?/
i shd start now
seriously.
Wednesday, May 14, 2008, 7:41 PM
from reality to fantasy
TMR IS MARKING DAY!and i'm going to sch for that stupid star-.-
sicko man, only 1 pathetic day of rest and it has to be taken away from me.
and friday we would be going for a camp. for 3 days.
and monday
i bet i will be dead beat to do anything,
shissh
marking day still hav to go sch
what a ridiculous statement
and what did the announcement say today
"PLS BE REMINDED THAT ITS MARKING DAY TMR, AND YOU ARE NOT REQUIRED TO COME TO SCHOOL"
lols i'm sure EVERYONE heard that
and whats the truth. apoor bunch of ppl still hav to come to sch tmr
oh yeah. the chosen ones -.-
so sickening
and 16may
its only 2 days aways
and i am feeling so scared
i think i shall be prepared to write a full page explanation why i did so badly
haiz
sians
went vivo with gals today
haha
than wwent for piano lessons
hit my leg agaist some metal
and its swollen now
ouch its pain.
ice packs works wonders.
its too numb that i can feel the pain.
haiz/
after exam immediately must do proposal
gosh
can i at least hav some rest
this is so stupid can?
then go back not eam ald
mom started to nag abt me infront of the com again
hey i am doing project ar
CAN I HAVE SOME PEACE and REST PLEASE
FORGET IT.. IT WON'T HAPPEN
lols we are treated like super heroes dun nid to rest ar/
haiz
no rest after exam was kind of rubbish is this
we are humans not robots!
Tuesday, May 13, 2008, 5:58 PM
exam's not over. but i am.
wonderful, when everyone, well almost. was happily finishing their last paperpoor us still hav 1 more and 1 tmr.
when everyone's slping at home we would be in sch sitting for a 2 hrs torture paper.
TWO HOURS.
of continous chinese passage that acts like a pendulum swinging infront of me
making tons of osciallations that i can slp.
oh god spare me
and thu when everyone, well almost i s slping on their bed at home
i would be in sch!
oh wth, life's terrible, how come i always hav todo extra
how i wish we could switch positions for A DAY!
maybe just marking day, oh god i finished my job as an exam candidate.
ITS MARKING DAY, notdoing paper day
after like so many papers.
i can't even be spared on marking day
what the heck
wheres the rest after my hard work?!
looks like i hav none.
forget it, i shall be guai guai and do my theory tmr
since i hav lesson
how great.
HAIZ
counting 6 days, i am somehow not excited at all.
how come. but shaoying seems quite excited.
how i wish i could take my results on the 20th
let me hav my peaceful birthday
haish
i hope it wold be memorable.
HOPE
coz i can vaguely rmb what happened for the previuos years
other than camps and checking script-.-
fine wadeva.
argh the thought of going to sch tmr
for higher chinese
how come every year also liek that
from P5 until now
always the HCL ppl hav one day more
when everyone can rest at home ald
why can;t they put normal chinese on the last day too!
argh! sick
maths today
great 4/5's having listening compre
wow great music
so CLASSICAL the invigilator said we are sitting for the chinese imperior exams.
lols.
heard the passages like twice. and i know all the contents and event he qns.
can;t really concentrate on my paper
but at least i finished
its better that paper1 but
nvm my maths is gonner ald.
then was HCL LC
GOD the same passages
its SO BORING can
almost slept.
four times same passage
ok then went to imm
to eat and get some stuff
we treat it as exam is over
ya i wished
its not over, i am
Monday, May 12, 2008, 4:45 PM
possibility to fantasy./
chem paper was like terrible/.but we als told ms ong to be mentallyprepared
well i'm not that sure if i am for 16 may.
not just double blow but the blow to the power of 9?
9 subj. gd luck tanny./
as usual i had quite alot of free time
lols
only one qns that i din noe how to do and din hav the inspiration to crap out the answered
practically stoned for like 45 to think through that crappy 4 marks qns
but i can just say gd bye to it lah.
lols actl i can say gdbye to quite a number of papers.
for e.g emath, amath, chem and geog/
sad lah geog
think mrschong is goin to laugh marking my paper at such ridiculous answers-.-
fine wadeva
16 may is going to be such a disaster
bleah
was still trying to solve my 2x2x2 cube.
solved it once after tons of turning
and some kind sould kindly helped me messed up.
haish.
then went to makan with chesj
went bank after that,
backhome now. stoning again,
coz the tv volume is so loud.
i can't take it,
someone's deaf i'm not./
Sunday, May 11, 2008, 7:25 PM
studying for chem.
its not chemistry its chimistry
all the chimologyone thousand and one things to readup and memorise/
haiz
well i know we dun hav memo some times if we understand
but that is if we understand.
lols IF ONLY
still deciding whether ishd go and eat
i not exactly hungry but later i hungry ald than everything close liao.
haiz/.
3:03 PM
a sunday with no one at home!
yesno one's at home
is what i call PEACE
stumbled upon the 2x2x2 rubiks today
although its only 2x2x2
but i think 3x3x3 is even easier as it has a centre point.
(but anyway for stupid ppl like me, who dun even noe theres a center point till recently)
did the usuals on sunday
then went to hav mothers day lunch
japanese food again...
i had it like 5 times consecutive for the past 5 sundays
and i swear i'm not eating it for at least the next 5 weeks
bleah , at lleast not from nihonmura
coz they dun hav the sushi i want!
went to jp while dad went imm with grandma.
i'm not gg there
i came back to study chem
scared i fail
chem is the only subj that i am not that bad at.
and if its going to fail me then ,, sayorana.
lols decided to try out a new way of rmbering things
hmm hope it works.
off to work!
Saturday, May 10, 2008, 11:00 AM
from possiblity to actuality back to fantasy
i dreamt and dreamtthat evtg was perfect for me.
evtg couldbe
if i stayed in that perfect dream of mine.
but everything was gone when i woke up this morning
and i shall forget evtg/
woke up at 10 plus
quite tired
as usual i feel like gg somewhere other than staying at home
coz i dun get my peace.
but i still haven't decided where to go yet
and i have a crazy plan of studying in the MRT from jurong all the way to changi without getting down
and then study back to jp again
it may sound stupid but who know i might really go and do it,
with the condition that some on does it with me lah,
and i must say meiji HI-MILK chocolate is so nice.
haha
i lurve it.
and i dun see it too often outside.
hmm
gd thing i bought 2 bars haha
coz nxt week is the bloddy camp!
ARGHHHH
and i am suppose to go to sch on THU
on a marking da for the dumb star project.
which is like stupid can.
on a marking day when every issuppose to rest..
and i am so looking forward tot eh next public hols
tmr is mother's day duno what to get for mom]
maybe just a card?
or just saying happy mother's day hah.
wadeva.
studying for chem
thousand and one things tostudy,
getting a lil worried for 16 may when i get back my papers.
coz i hav alot of extra time.
gd thing ms ong nvr come and invigilate me,
she shd see how much time i hav left.
but anyways, i do it fast but i hav no blanks.
i look through the whole paper before i start any qns
then when i do qns 1 i ald think of answer for qns 2
so faster leh.
i cant wait to finish my papers
get over and done with
coz some things u know means u know
dunno no matter how long i think the answer still wrong.
so
study hard before u go in and dun regret
yea i think that line shd be mearnt for me huh
ok gotta study chemistry!
Friday, May 9, 2008, 6:30 PM
headache!
emath this morning was a total disaster.i think i only know how to do a few question
and i hav like half the time left. as usual.
lols chacked and drew that stupid graph i dun even know how to/
alot of sec 2 stuff.
and i really suck at it.
after that ate at canteen.
than geog paper/
was worse.
i think i only can do like 3 qns.
i seriously hope i can like just get a C6
and i hope the examiner dun die laughing looking at my ridiculous answer.
seriously its RIDICULOUS.
fingers crossed, C6 will do.
i think i will cry on the way to camp/
haish
and smth tells me that theres going to smth wrong with the papers/
like my paper always got smth wrong.
marking, calculation. wadeva.
and if we cannot claim marks than how!!
stupid camp put on stupid date.
and mom's goin to celebrate my bdae without me overseas/ wad sort of rubbish is this?!
its my birthday. not hers?!
lols. i hate birthdays, esp when they clash on camps.
or right after camps.
and after one day of rest 20may must go sch again.
awww/so stupid/
i want a one week birthday break and go overseas!!!!
and play
ya like that will EVER happen.
in reality
maybe a night's stay in some hotel in s'pore with my frens will be good/
ya like that will ever happen as well.=.=
crapped/
chem on monday.
emath and HCL listening on tuesday
and finally HCL p2 on wed!!!!
YEAH!!!
MYE is abt to be OVER
and the results is goin to make my life OVER too.
=.=///
and my early dismissals too.....
haiz.
sometimes exams are great too.
haha.
and for one thing i have been starting to hate to go home
thanks to the extra CONDUSIVE environment at home.
i rather go lib or stay in sch to study wadeva that i nid to.-.-
lols studying with the fysc will do great
sonce they face the same prob as me.
haiz
and at home.
my MP3 rocks.
Thursday, May 8, 2008, 5:05 PM
for once.
nice eh. hello kitty exhaust=)
for once i'm back earlier.
and i regret doing so.
lols got the I/C letter today.
yeahs..
haha
but i dunno wad chinese name to put in my I/C leh
haiz. stupid lah got so many variations
i think i put the one that is easiest to write haha.
lols i'm lazy
haiyo
came home and mom starts to bombard me with qns again
glad that she's goin out at night
said she was goin JE, lols wanted to tell her that i just came back from there-.-
history paper today
ok,
well i din study much coz i will panick and forget everything so.
hmm.. i believe about consistancy and not last min.
mr boay invigilated.
and he left a mentos (no packaging) on each of our table
i go a shock lols
thanks anyway
so... than HCL paper 1. forget to bring dianzicidian.
god why is my memory getting from bad to worse.
haiz gd thing wanyi is willing to go home and help me take
thanks alot
then went to lib
played with wanyi's rubiks cube and i broke it
ok i bought another one for her. ald/
than took the test
mdmyang is such a WONDERFUL invigilator
she din even say "kai shi" or u may begin in english.
lols
then we all stunned
she ald started the time
oh how great
thank god i had so much extra time.
or else i would hav killed her
but anyways she's famous for giving less time for test and exams.
-.-
then went to lib and phtocopied some stuff..
me and char had a long talk while sj and fionn were so engrossed in some comic.
than went down
went to observe exhaust pipes
haha
that was the most stupid things ever
and ms ong was there looking
and soon came mrloh.
heng we ald see finish his car one
then went to take 98 to JE
bought a couple of totoro
haha they are so cute.
heh ate lunch and some waffles/
took mrt home=)
Wednesday, May 7, 2008, 7:32 PM
my life is like a spectrum of white light
back from piano lessonsit was..
did scales and some sight reading
oh my pls my sight reading is HORRIBLE
i can't even play simple stuff.
haiz
haven even start on pieces yet
thank god slc week piano's off for a break
mytyo ask us to go see concert so that we could perform or be emcee
oh god i rather be emcee than perform.
coz my practical is really - cannot make it.
lols
had long chats with rach to catch up on each other again
although we are not in the same class but are soul mates. haha
eight years of solid friendship haha
we seldom argue and even so we resolve probs very fast haha
shd treasure friends like that huh.
talked and chat
and right now once again i am infront of my com
haiz
here is my target list for MYE.
EL - B4
CL - A1
HCL - B3
SS/HIS - A2
Geog - B3
Maths - A2
A - maths - C6
Chem - A1
Phy - C6
hmm like that enough for me ald
L1R5 abt 13 still can lah hor.
lols.
tmr is hist and HCL paper 1
haiz HCL all the stupid phrases again
bet lianxin and i will go off again. chanting those stupid good phrases/
haha
lucks eveyone!
2:02 PM
i think my memory is degenerating from bad to worsethis morning i forgot to bring something again..
and i ald throughly check through my bag if i forget to bring anything...
haiz sry jingrui.
i will rmb tmr
i really think i am goin to fail alot of papers
from the word around
looks like the results are rather dissapointing.
but then is not that i nvr study.
haiz.
haiyo. 4 years in sch
active in wad activities also no use one loh
in the end is still that piece of paper
those ppl who hav the most number of A1s and A2s
for ppl who strive hard only with the hope to pass the subj
haiz like me
its no abt the no confidence thing again
before i even sit for the paper i know can fail ald
and anyway its not the first time.
haiz.
its ok,
just get do and done with
english paper today,
heard out of 5 papers only 2 passed.
haiz. i did my paper very slowly ald lorh
so slow i thinki i can slp.
lols and the passage makes me think of the bioinfometics stuff
yucks.
interesting but i'm not up to that standard of understanding evtg
haiz.
nvm
after school
walked around the sch for the class files
haiz i hate it when it rains and there's exam.
the ate study
and homed
coz its so quiet there
and i can't plug in.
so might as well go home and i hav lesson at 430 if i am not wrong?
and i really want to slp lah.
i wan to slp.
dreamt alot last night
think i din really slp
so tired today morning
and the thought of taking the HCL paper tmr makes me wanna cry...
2 more hours!!!!
to write a stupid letter and a compo-.-
HAIZ/// lifeis torturous.
tml's agnes's birthday
gotta runalong and get her gift soon.
ok bb.
Tuesday, May 6, 2008, 4:28 PM
revive it alive
physics paper todaystupid me packed my bag ytd
and practically packed evtg i am suppose to pack in out.-.-
haiz thx for all the calculator curve rule and pencil haha
although the curve rule wasnt even needed lols
straught line graph
lols curve one also cannot ask to find gradient
unless u plug in maths stuff
haiyo
paper 2 was first.
1 hour 25 mins
i wish i could donate some timeto my paper 1
haiz
i like got abt 1 hour plus minus to check
so boring
so i redid some qns
drew the graph a few times.
check and check
but the more i look at the paper
the more i think i am going to fail it
haiz
paper one was worse
so terrible
SO DIFFICULT
!!!
and so little time..
enough to kill man 35 mins
now i just wish for a pass///
hah like that is what i always wish for lah
pass enough le
same go for amaths
i jus wan a min C6 for all my subj
like that for me contented=)
haha
haiz
coz i really suck in everything
haha
and i still can haha
something must be wrong with my brainn...
later inside is all water
and after studyin geog its go there come back like everywhere also got density ar
stupid density lah
i still cannot understand
i think i go and slp now haha
bb!
Monday, May 5, 2008, 6:28 PM
just perhaps/
today's paper was more or less expectedyes and SS i hope i can score well
with all the crappy anwsers i crapped out
haha
A maths was a breeze/?!
i finished within like 1 hour
coz got more than half of the question all i nvr do
haha
think char will get the best results in the fysc for amaths
haiz still argueing wiht sj for who will get eh lower results
i think i will haha
and to spend my time "wisely" in the one hour, i worte out all the physics notes
on the spare foolscap
its stupid i know
coz i got too much time
and i dun think i should waste it
mr sam is going to mark today
hope he dun get a shock of his life
better prepare with aspirin, paracetamol and secure a bed beside
haiz sry mrsam
i think we all tried our best....
after that studied with fysc..
haha fysc rocks!
dun ask whats that
haha
but i think everyone also know le
lols
PHYSICS PHYSICS PHYSICS PHYSICS PHYSICS PHYSICS PHYSICS
should i luv it
coz i really understand it much better than amaths
and i have a nice teacher who will gladly explain evtg so that i understand
haha
tmr is physics paper
i hope i can do well... enough to pass
haha
ok go study now! bb
Sunday, May 4, 2008, 9:04 PM
yesterday a history, tomorrow a mystery
yeah no doubt tmr i'm having like 2 papersand i am still blogging in front of the com
i think i ald know what i nid to know,
basedon my kinesthetic learning style
i tried to fill my notes with drawings
so i can remember better
and yeah they are helping!
haha thats great
went out with fionn to study today
i drew my sheeps to help me understand and remember better
they sort of help
i can picture sheeps better than words
and fionn was afraid i fall asleep
lols
went to pop to get some stantionaries
browse through some assesment books
haiz is SAP is going to fail me with all the crap answers they got
what book shd i get leh
lols
SS done studying and A maths too
all ready for tmrs paper
wadeva i know shall get do with it
wadeva i dunno i shall just get do and done with as well
actually i'm quite ok for this weeks's papers all the way until thursdays emaths
not the core geog part
at least part of most of the info ald in my brain
then evtg hav to come out
but now i am focusing more on understanding and not memorizing
coz memorizing is just short term
understanding can go a long way
haha
SS i am not scared
A maths i am no longer scared
coz i ald mentally prepared with teh worse results
which is like lowest in class again
got this "title" like consecuive twice le
i am ald used to it
haha
yes once again reason i am blogging
coz i am so irritated by questions by everyone
like i am their wad?
lols
can't stand it
i am going to study till late tmr again
physics
arghh... hate it
but i still hav to take it
but i'm finding it easier than chem nowadays
haiz
ok MP3 broke down
hav to transfer songs to hp now
sian.
Saturday, May 3, 2008, 10:25 PM
life's like a breeze?
went to mac early in the morning todaythat was my breakfast cum lunch
haiz
than had maths remedial
got knocked on my head again
thanks ar mr sam
wen through the class test paper
and without errors once again i predicted that i would fail
haha
i bet i got the lowest in class again
haiz nvm
shall practice more
and i pray that i will pass mid year
coz somehow or another i think that i will fail.....
its not low confidence, its no confidence.-.-
haiz
and today at home
i din really study
i CANNOT study at home
#1. i hav no peace at home
#2. the bed is so tempting
#3. looking at my goggles makes me feel like swimming
#4. i have no one to answer my question, no one can solve my sums, even if mum's good at chi, she can't read my HCL words, oh wads the point
#5. i am disturbed over minor things and i hate getting disturb, esp when i am studying
i feel like asking the people at home to shut up but i can't respect u see.-.-
haiz.
so conclusion, i hate going home
to me, home is just a place where i slp eat and bathe
and blog of coz haha
go home cannot study and no peace haiz
mum plays her music, grandma ons TV so loud, dad's lucky to escape all these
i am not allowed to shut my door.-.-
so i plug in loh
then later they say , call me nvr respond
what crap lah, might as well dun stay at home
wan study also cannot
close door also cannot
play piano they say noisy,
stupid. if i go uni i will stay in the hostel , even if i am staying in singapore
if this is wad they call care and concern i rather be ignored.
it would be very peaceful
if they really cared they shouldnt have brought me in this world
and leave me with a broken picture, when its their problem
stupid adults
wan like that dun giv birth to children lah.
save my trouble of being on earth
MYE's ald starting
like i got more than 10 papers to go
how wonderful
haiz
monday's a killer
but after that can dun so scared ald
and anyway that one is sure die one loh
dun hav to worry ar
sure fail. confirm gurantee chop sign and counter sign
-.-
maths is a hopeless case for me
i think i study for ss got more use
maths this kind of thing
nvr study fail
study also fail
then might as well spent my time on other subj like ss
ok i better stop wasting my time here and make some notes for SS.
bb
i hate to be at home.
if i got a laptop, i dun even wan to come home haha
Friday, May 2, 2008, 9:24 PM
the parting sky. took it from 3/4
streets at night 7:18 PM
eccentricity in another dimension
chinese paper todayi hate to take papers in the hall
cannot concentrate
and i dun even know how to bind my papers tgt
how stupid can tanyunhao get/
haish
and no one actl taught us how to do so
and next time i will rmb to bring a hole puncher there
oh pls
making holes with penknife is so stupid
haiz
life is pure torture
then smth cropped up
break is gone
survived thanks to my packet of plain crackers
and i was munching it outside the toilet?
ok
paper 2 is !$#@#
so difficult
i could have fallen asleep while reading those long and boring passage talking about philosophys that i would not like to understand
sian
life is so boring
after schoolfound fionn and char toking to mrsam
than did maths also
than i cannot tahan ald
haha
went to buy kfc back for them
only 15 mins to there and come back
lols
whipped potato rock the world
i don't care what mr Ng zy say
lols so many things in the world are like so artificially made
heard that coke is made from tar
and apparently my workshop is called from tar to PARACETAMOL
hahah
its a wonder drug
=)
the invention of amoxycillin is also another great invention
and god noes what are they made of
haha
but still everyday many ppl get saved by it
no matter how contaminated food can get by chemical processes or wadeva
we still eat it lah
人生短短几十年.....
吃过了就算乐，若吃什么东西都要知道食物的来头，那不要吃算了
冰冻三尺，非一日之寒， 都吃了这么多年..
lols
did some physics
read on amaths
i hate them
i dun understand
i even think my future career will require anything to do wiht maths and physics
i am not goin to be an engineer lols
sick lah
physics and maths is a guys thing
it should not be introduce to gurls!
so stupid, no relevance at all/dumb dumb
and i want to go out...
haiz
like now
i wan to go and roam jp
eat ice cream
strawberry
than i shall go popular
get some thing for sj
and myself
ya if only mum allows
haha
cross fingers lah
i go bathe first later than see=)
at home is so boring
i really wan a sibling
to tok to me
to crap lame jokes with me
haha
there is no such thing on earth for me sadly
for u ppl out there
cherish your siblings!
haha
goodbye world!
Thursday, May 1, 2008, 5:16 PM
change email!
hahachanged my gmail account
thought it was a lil long eh
haha
but anyway for older post u might want to visit
www.jacketsheep.blogspot.com
tmr's cl paper
i think i'm more worried abt monday and tueday's paper
haiz
i think my mom will come to meet the parents session lah
lols
she say if i do well than she wun come
lols come onlah
like i will do well
not that i do not have any confidence in myself but is that
i really don't think i can make it
last time is try to get A1
now is pass can le
lols
expecially A maths
haiz
i said i din even want to take it last year
and physics also
i dun even like amaths
lols
but physics for me ok lah
at least can pass
lols
i goin to slp now
study at night.