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Wednesday, July 30, 2008, 5:25 PM
let it wander
i am determined to learn all my exam pieces by TONIGHT!
i must learn it so i wun get screwed by my teacher tmr!
zzz. coz i ald got screwed many times
and tmr is make up! lols
better make it great
i am listening to those pieces so it would get in my head
lols though i thought there are nicer pieces but its all set so nvm loh,
class tgt
no assembly
hallelujah
pc, slacked..
did my chem
and mrloh's chem is not chemistry, its called chimistry.
but thanks anw, merily copied.
chinese, weds are the best
newspaper!
english
nvr liked
Mr Lam, miss your lessons!
i'm looking forward to fri.
tmr got pe, great, we've been missing it for 2 weeks
recess
thanks for giving me a shock
ate rice and din drink milk today
math
i listened
was annoyed
but i know how to do those sums.
thanks jingrui a million for lendin me her note book.
chem
erm
new topic
mostly learnt before
GREAT
i understood everything
coz leanrt before mah
haha
oral
terrible
havin sorethroat
oh god
i need strepsils.
badly
hope i can like find some athome.
horrible topic
stupid picture
star
the video just rock!
yea, loved it.
cool way of learning history!
yea and nobody slept
well. duh.
hahas
ok i think i gg to eat dinner soon.
c'ya
Tuesday, July 29, 2008, 10:29 PM
get over and done with.
as the days go by
things get worse
now its worser than ever
everything is jammed pack into one mega episode
whoo.
how wonderful
this marathon looks never ending
and sadly i'm not accelerating
the future look rather bleak
and i think i'm goin to dehydrate soon
this race, i need a break
but i cant, coz it seems like its gg to rain soon
the race must be completed
but till the day when i really complete that race
when the position dosent matter anymore
i think i would be gone by then
wiped out.
i hope this marathon can be finished soon
and i need to find out whos running this race with me
coz now, i'm running it alone
schools getting more and more horrid
subj getting tougher
and i dun understand a crap
homework is so much
esp el.
i cant take it anymore
theres like homeowork almost everyday
and its a pile of homework
and i dun think its helping anyone coz its so much
noone puts in effort in it
just want to get over and done with
its no point
doing for the sake of doing.
crap.
very vulgar these few days
and sorry to all those i've hurt directly, or indirectly.
and mood is terrible thanks to all the wonderful workloads.
zz.
sian diao.
choir's farewell budget is absurd
$60 i have 3 words
do it yourself
ppl cca hav 150 to 200
ours is like 3 times lesser can.
ok nvm
get over and done with
thats like my motto for this stupid marathon
haiz
this is so absurd, why is the organising so terrible, why do they like to call my name?
Sunday, July 27, 2008, 11:08 AM
NEWTON'S THIRD LAW
everyone seems to be in love with it/
what goes up must come down.
ya if i dun work hard, that would be the outcome of my results
very true
i think i need to get started to study
and not spend so much time on my darling lapptopp
even though i am really doing serious stuff
and relieveing of my stress by blogging!
and my blog is my form of stress relieving
wadeva i do scold comment is totally noyb
-.-
ok
sat
math lessons
and as usual mr sam was late again
learnt some new stuff
and i think my math is seriously going to suffer a terrible fate.
after that physics
at least mrloh was earlier than mr sam by 5 mins
but still late.
din rly listened much
the more i listened the more confised i become.
did tys/.
the qns inside were.
not very diff.
ya but only the mcq
but i still think physics shd be spelt as physick
ya it really makes me sick.
ok gtg now.
shall post somemore ltr
Thursday, July 24, 2008, 11:39 PM
find the way
life is really getting rather chaotic over here
its really VERY different when u start to take over like EVTG
and practically no one who is under the same stress as u can understand
life is getting so sick and i seldom have my own time to do my own things=.=
(that includes playing my piano)
i chose my path and i have to take all reposibilities to walk well.
now and my dear sat it taken up by lessons AGAIN.
i think my common test results is really going to suffer due to the happenings and also my grading
i just hope that i would pass
becoz the freakin abrsm is changin syllabus next year
so i have to pass or else i have to retake evtg over and again
and thank my teacher for telling me that her student that is of the same age as me, took the same grade and got just 1 mark to full marks
ya thanks
now i'm worrying abt how to pass
oh god save me.
going back to class, its lets say choatic
first semester is ok,
and i really dunno wad on earth happen to those ppl
and i dun really wish to know either
somehow or another under those things,
u wun really feel like studying also
and adding on to all that things that are happening
i shant list them out,
i have a serious problem with proritizing
and i really dunno wad to do
of coz every teacher would say that thier project is important and thier subject's homework must do
for some i really can understand, eg. chinese we are taking olevels and we are aware of the importance, so i will really complete the homework on time!
and math too, i know the problem if i dun do the homework so i'm doing it!
but for _____, i shant say wad.
we have been like doing that for years and it dosent seem to have helped me alot.
and for chinese we did the same thing and seriously when it comes to the real thing, u wun even think abt the procedure of answers that you are suppose to
thinking on your two feet is the thing that you must know how
maybe becoz of the fact that i talk alot.
ok fine,
and tell me abt newpaper articles we are not only doing new ones but also doing some that ar elike 2005, wow great.
ok.
haiz and please i can only settle one project at a time
maybe at most up to one per commitment
i am not superman
and god knows why i am always in for these proposals, zzz
its so tiring even after delegating jobs.
ya teh delegating part is.
and the explaning past is even more.
haiz part and parcel of life, ya i know
like this things dun even happen in my mom's age.
lols like wad mr ang once said: "see you all like that do, if you were in a company, dunno promote until how high ald"
to juggle all those things at one go its easier said than done.
and to drop any of them its also easier said than done.
i have to find my own shortcut
but although i am taking this shortcut
i cannot miss any of those important things that are only in the long route
find the way
when the lights are not shinning
when the sun is out
when theres like no tommorrow
when i feel like breaking down
when i dunno who to approach for help
i can say that i can hide my emotions very well
no one have seen the true me
coz i have yet to find one that i really trust/
what u said to me today, really broke my heart.
it not as easy as u think to juggle like 4 projects, grading plus academics at one go.
its not that i dun wish to help
but its that i dun even know what is happening now
and the ppl who are suppose to be involved and incharge arent
this is not suppose to happen
i feel that i should somehow or another reject this position
since i couldnt contribute as much time as u ppl can
i dun mind quiting.
Wednesday, July 23, 2008, 7:15 PM
procrastination
assembly this morning was.
sigh racial harmony
why do we have to commemorate racial harmony every year?
becoz we hav a very enthu hod, lols.
mt was.
lol newpaper cutting ok
followed by english
for the first time in ten thousand years
we were released for recess on time!
YEAH.
math, mr sam wasnt here today,
followed be chem
oh yes
the hamster thing
one day or two its ok.
but that does not seems to be the case
some ppl are totally CRAZY over that poor fellow
imagine that they got to experience like so many "human disasters"
eg. 1.as an entertainer to entertain us humans.
even though we may see to care abt them so much, u are still in a sense torturing them
2. they hav to experience loud explosions which is then followed by acid rain, like the beakers breaking and then sulphuric acid splashed all over and almost hit that poor fellow.
oh god.
this is insane.
they cannot hav their freedon to run in the wheels but instead must hide in some pathetic cave like things
when they finally have the chance to run freely, they are being captured back as class is abt to start.
oh god this is worse than a discipline camp!
they cant even sleep properly, and humans are invading, into it
just like them gg through our ______night every single day
poor things.
but no matter what, must really concentrate on studies
common test coming
i think my results are gg to fluctuate acc to the amt of effort i put in
and not acc to the amt of stuff i can understand during lessons
at this pt of time
we cant rely on anyone else.
other than ourselves
loads of things to settle, when can ppl start being more sensible
and have more intergrity, isit that we rly lacked the cme lessons.
why can ppl turn out to be so irresposible.
do things rly hav to turn out that way?
can we go back to the past please, i am tired of reality
Tuesday, July 22, 2008, 7:53 PM
adrenaline gush
life is moving on at the speed of 3x10 to the power of 8
and that is just too fast for a pathetic human to live through
maybe some can but, haha thats person is not me
projects are coming and i dunno on which one to start on, well thats the worse
and our class,
as waht lx has mentioned in her blog
as expected to perform well in terms of academic.
but WELL>
this is not the case. obviously
our class has our fair share of jss teachers
and abundance of trainees, etc
and seriously
some of them rly CANNOT MAKE IT
well may not yet.
i'm not implying that i can teach better than them or wad/.
but, i seriously dun even know what on earth are they talking abt.
oh god,
i feel like migrating to africa.
where i can see the beautiful scenery and animals.
maybe i shall go there and learn how to become miss africa, than maybe i can beat ,
uh hem.
musicals over and everything is starting,!
star and evtg
we are gg to shanghai this year
and lol, i think i will die there in the cold
with so many things coming,
not forgetting my studies and also grading coming on the way/
i think i'm not rly coping well with some subj,.
esp math, phy and chem
lols. i dk wad is being taught.
geog is getting much better, than before
and i have been understanding alot better
i think i should start my self studying soon
i shall study soon,
hav to delegate my time very well
time management and balancing evtg.
hard, any advices./?
(if u are asking me to drop any of them than u can save ur word. coz i wun)
Saturday, July 19, 2008, 7:14 PM
termination.extermination
went out with jr today
the whole trip was WONDERFUL till
ok, i shant elaborate.
sry filbert i think i did not keep u very entertained today lols.
bout some stuff for my room
and some stuff for my pmt managers.
oh outside its..
but once i step foot into home
and i feel a sudden sense of sian.
lols dunno why
perhaps i'm always all alone at home surrounded by adults and elderly and noone of the same agegrp as me
i am being questioned for 99% of the things i do
and they are happy even if i spoke greek to them abt what i did
yes i ispoke english and apparently, they are glad even though they dont even understand
oh wad crap is this.
ya pure crap.
and for everything
i am asked why i chat so long on msn.
oh come on. i have no one to talk to at home
dun even hav a sibling to share my problems
thats the sian-ness of being the ONLY child
and i rly hate it.
u can say that i only tok to my laptop, and desktop and perhaps my phone?
sian diao.
lols and ya the above i said abt toking is blogging msn-ing and sms-ing
lols.
i rly envy those ppl with sibling
like 9 out of 10 of my frens do.
at home got to answer all the crap qns for mom dad and grandma
and lols,.
they dun even ask me abt studies
i cant hav my own room becos
haiz
and now,
i treat the living room like my room
lols ya
living rm at least hav more live, living mah.
sian. iwantohavasibling
i hate to go home.
i hate to stay at home
i wish to turn 21 and get out
yes
i'm finally getting my ic on mon.
Friday, July 18, 2008, 8:21 PM
no gravity can hold me down
yesterday
went back home and my stomach cramp like wad.
slept
so sorry to those who have smsed me or called me at night
anw yesterday was a sucky day.
today.
not any better
classes
ok i still enjoy mstan's humans lessons
and hitler's video is spectacular and fantastic
amath, thankgod mr sam haven mark finish teh papers
i think he better not mark it at all
just incase he faints upon seeing all the ridiculous answers.
after that physics quite ok.
but hate caculations
but at least it was interesting
i meant the lesson, not the theories.
aftersch
choir.
ok my life's BACK to NORMAL
i think i cannot lift up to the name of a vp
so thank god i wasnt give the p.
just recieved the message that grading is on 18/8
omfg
gonna DIE!
die flat man
i dunno even know how to play MOST of the piece
there is 3 meaning i only know how to play 1.
ok, its that bad
and my sight reading's sucky too.
ok
shd start practising and stop crapping
ok gtg bb
Thursday, July 17, 2008, 7:07 PM
i need to be alone.
i am so tired today
leader commencement day is over
and wow we are stepping up, so soon
26th has really come a long way
and now things has just starting to get more hectic
which is NOT a good sign
i need some time to be alone and do my own stuff
and i dont want to be asked and questioned for evtg i do
if i wan to say i will say
and for an extrovet like me,
i will say most of the time
but on the contrary, the more u ask, the more i will shut up.
esp when i am ald so tired, so for the welfare of me
just shutup for once
i am really VERY tired today
after leaders commencement day
had math and physics practical
did some naphthelene experiment, din smell too nice but was quite fun
exp the cool data loggers, cum touchscreen cool thing
math lessons just sounded like a lullaby for me to go to slp, how tired can i get.
and math test
it was more of slping than doing
(but i did finish)
but correct or wrong is another thing,
anw i dun care so much
the only thing i feel like than was to go and slp
than after that still got chem
ok
i din know a single thing that she was teaching
but at least she has great handwriting that i can read
and not decipher.
the summary was great thanks
after that went jp to makan and walk around
after that i am right at home
and the minute i step home
i have been bombarded wiht qns frm grandma
that rly make me feel like smacking her
maybe its an act of concern but
i am rly no mood today, and the questions she asked are so.
and dad gave me a call to ask me how was it
when i was so excited to tell him all abt he dun even bother o listen
than now he spents like 5 mines trying to guess wad on earth is lcd
and he even thot it was racial harmony
how wonderful
and i just on loudspeaker
and reply wiht constant "ar"
i want a room of my own
and i wan privacy and "do not disturb" signs to get ppl OUT
ok enough of scolding
i'm rly tired go slp for a while first
than online to get stuff from managers.
ok.
i shouldnt expect so much of myself that i can do
my limit is there and i am in no condition now to accomplish anything
sry, i nid to rest.
Saturday, July 12, 2008, 9:06 PM
over.
FRIDAY
musical day
no school
thanks mom for waking me up at 550
lols
woke up at 9
and than went to jp to wait for ppl
ate with sj, fionn, filbert, wy, xw, xr and hisyam
ate ljs.
sigh din execute plan
filbert, we will do it on mon.
than went to school
to get the blazers and evtg
suppose to get ready by one
yea SUPPOSE
than some things crop up here and there
like....
ok i cant stand them
shd hav scolded them
ok then go bus.
reached there
mdm rani the great started to brief us on wad we are suppose to do
ya like just great
wow
i din even understand a single thing
than mrloh re-briefed us again
haha laughoutloud
get in to positions.
matinee started
ok the crowd was streaming in.
and the receptions were all.
all thanks to ___________
than after that
me and sj had to memorize the VIP names and their seats
lols
cool way
and me and sj were chanting it all along
to everyone practically except.hmm u know.
lols the briefing i was practically laughing all the way
haha. so funny
ok not the briefing was funny, but the person sitting next to me
than rehearsed again and again
but i can tell u its all redundant
ok
than inther end
we were like living easels and serving tea and coffee?
ok
finally the DGE was gone.
thats great
mrs chia was very nice and so was DGE lah actl
wondeful experience and Mr Sheik rocks man
he is the BEST vp i've met in my life!
ok
than the funny part was at teh end abt the flowers lols
i was laughing all the way
and so hard mr chan was starring at me
lols
went back on the bus
half slept
went back home still cannot slp
see the constant vibration of my phone.
wow
i counted 40 sms that night
i am so pro.
nvm i got alot to spam hahas
SATURDAY
was late for lessons
thought i was alte
and actl i was
but the teacher wasnt very early too.
i reached there than the class start
so i was just in time.
lucky me
and late for lessons is better than not gg at all.
than went jp makan
and lib to do script.
went to makan again
than homed/
ok i suddenly feel very sian.
dk why
maybe abt the posting for choir
just hope they dun giv me sl.
oh pls
if sl i rather not be in committee
Thursday, July 10, 2008, 10:40 PM
LOSS
ok today was half day
but my half day was more like a no sch day
lols
ran ard with pass and went to look for ppl
borrowing blazer and stuff
haha
than sch ended in a flash
and i heard we must write a compo on loss
like
ok
i was at a total lost when ms phua asked me to write this essay
i think i am most likely goin to type it out
ok.
coz i am lazy to write
haha
loss
yeah man, i am rly at a LOSS
lols wad to write?
dun care lah
hope tmr musical is a success!
haha esp the ushering part lah
meeting them at 1030 tmr
than gg meiji
after that than ..
ok shall blog tmr.
bb
gtg now
Tuesday, July 8, 2008, 9:42 PM
I would be there when the storm is through...
started of with chinese
ok me, lx, sj&xw, were laughing all the way
lols i also forget mainly becoz of wad ald.
lols but i did giv them a stupid qns
lols
abt mrlau's experiment once again.
haha
can rly lame and crap abt that
even through we havent rly touch abt acceleration and how that mrlau's wonder bottle work
lols than went on to geog
maths
ok. i find it a chore to do math, basically becoz i suck at it
but now when i am experiencing for the first time my o-lvl oral, maybe i rly should work on it
then was geog
great ppt and i din slp!
haha and i understood most of the things, not bad.
much better than the wonderful E-tb way
ok but anyway due to todays oral i was speaking in Chinese all the way, well most of the time.
than was el
GREAT the new ms asia
started teaching today
HOW WONDERFUL!!!
her slang was spectacular
her voice level was extraordinary
perfection was the only word i have for her
and sarcasm was the only word i have for myself-.-
oh wth
than after that went for the wonderful meeting for the 45th ppl held by mdm rani
and her meeting was only one sentence
ok fine
wadeva
oral
damn nervous
but i was like the LAST few?!
haha i even slept for some time before it was my turn
lols
than talked crap and found out that all that i have studied was no use, but just to give myself some peace in the mind-.-
question
got so many word i sk how to read
passage sure die
than the conversation
i think i gave some answers that are rather stupid
like what 3rd language would u choose to take
and i said tamil
and they were so surprised
lols\
wadeva, plus the fact that i even told them that i memorized the mrt things
oh god
this is olvl what am i doing?!
then went to shengshiong with sj and jr
those two ppl busy sharing bout family bonding
like CNY]
or long time no meet frens
ok
went back home
i dk what to do for the el homework
made something for self enjoyment
eating wise
i think i will get sore throat
VERY SOON
haha if i continue eating chocs
which i will lols
ok better do some homework before i get humtump tmr
ok gtg bb!
Monday, July 7, 2008, 7:15 PM
i'll be there when the world stops turning..
started up with the mew system
still tryingmy best to connect tothe internet wihtout lan cable
sian than i might as well use deskptop is this has to be use in my room
lols but its better than nothing, at least i can plug in
than i can do my work in peace lols
still havent got my mouse yet, but i think i am rather used to using that funny pad lols
think i'm gonna change blogskin soon to the lay out thing
haha\ simple
andmore personalised
lols
gotta do some homework and i better practise tmr's oral
bleah, it hink i'm losing my voice
musical this friday, and i still dk what to do bout the usher?!
ok, this week's lesson is like no lesson
heard frm mrboay that some students are coming jss for 1 week attatchment
lols might as well not come
coz its not one week its only like 2 and a half days?!
ok get back tomy work, i shall strive hard this semsester to excel in all my commitments and studies( well even still, its seemed abit ridiculous.)
Sunday, July 6, 2008, 10:33 PM
Dreaming of actuality, dwelling in fantasy
woke up today early again,.
yes thankgod, tmr is a holiday
youth day,
dad bought me what i always wanted today,
youth day present maybe?
hahah
ya but bought on the condition that i must do well in studies
sian, Tuesday oral.
haiz
hope i can do well
iand i think that is the only thing that i can score abit better
yea i think i am much better at talking than writing
at least i dun have to waste energy writing
yes i am a lazy person
what it takes is only a few lozenges.
and some general knowledge
jr ;s coming over to do some cards
gonna get rather busy.
dk hows the timeline coming along
dun hav much confidence in myself on running this thing
haiz but i still hav to do it!
ok. fine.
tmr a rest day
finally
and this week is like only 2 days of proper lessons
and tue i wun be attending the whole lesson
ORAL ORAL
thats only the starting.
bless me with wonderful speech
i hope they dun come out F1
i wun know waht to say
but till this point of time, ;like alot of hot topics out ald.
ok i will do my best!
Saturday, July 5, 2008, 6:33 PM
I AM SO TIRED.
today thank FIONNTANWENXI, for your super early morning SMS to wake me up
at 7.10 am,
thanks a DOZEN
lols reached home at like 1230 yesterday...
totally exhausted.
anyone wanna try running round with court shoes.
EXCELLENT EXPERIENCE
everyone SHOULD have a turn=)
ok, worked with sj, for the past night.
ran around like?!
loads of funny stuff
welcome party is so boring, so we ended up crapping there
lols
then when the VIP FINALLY came
it was time for us to run like mad ppl/
lols.
got go get to the place to inform before the vip does
overall still ok
just that a bunch of ppl were OVER fascinated by some celebrities.
oh well...
wadeva. then after the whole thing.
sent rach and jr home
jr told me abt some star juniors.
hope that they can behave better like STARs next time
and set a good example to others. and also the sec 1s.
or else they would be following after your footsteps, like they are ald doing that.
then me and dad went to eat mac
haha
good thing there got 24hrs mac.
lucky
they should open one in jp.
or maybe at least some food place in my estate.
oh well thats not rly possible lah
then today
so early got lessons
sian.
dragged myself to sch
and practically slept throughout my whole bus journey, although its not very long.
maths.
ok, no comments
went to buy white shirt with jr
for agnes
these days have been especially tiring for many of us.
not just physically but also mentally and emotionally
maybe i just dunno how to face it.
although its not my prob but
its very tired of playing a live game of taboo every day
eith only two ppl in the game
and its getting rather tiring.,
pmt, is it a right position for me to be in?
i dun think so.
where is the person for me to talk to when i need it.
when can i find the person?
when can wake up from fantasy and begin to liv in reality
when will i stop deceiving myself
i am a person with extroverted actions and introverted thinking
nobody has been able to read my thoughts yet, not even the ftsc.
i like to be alone when i am stressed.
why do i need to share my problems when no one can even solve it
this is so ridiculous
i wun walk in to depression, dun worry
but life is just not meaningful enough
the rights and wrongs in life are not decided by me in this point of time.
when can i walk out of this dilemma ?
when can i find back my personality
why am i so anti-social
or isit that i just dun like to talk to ppl i dun know
no common topic.
they just dun share the same life as me.
no one has been able to know what i am thinking
and no one will ever.
forget abt the world coz no ones there
who is sensitive enough to feel that smth's missing
when will that person come.
spread the love around,
coz everyone's lacking that love.
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