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Thursday, July 24, 2008, 11:39 PM
find the way
life is really getting rather chaotic over here
its really VERY different when u start to take over like EVTG
and practically no one who is under the same stress as u can understand
life is getting so sick and i seldom have my own time to do my own things=.=
(that includes playing my piano)
i chose my path and i have to take all reposibilities to walk well.
now and my dear sat it taken up by lessons AGAIN.
i think my common test results is really going to suffer due to the happenings and also my grading
i just hope that i would pass
becoz the freakin abrsm is changin syllabus next year
so i have to pass or else i have to retake evtg over and again
and thank my teacher for telling me that her student that is of the same age as me, took the same grade and got just 1 mark to full marks
ya thanks
now i'm worrying abt how to pass
oh god save me.
going back to class, its lets say choatic
first semester is ok,
and i really dunno wad on earth happen to those ppl
and i dun really wish to know either
somehow or another under those things,
u wun really feel like studying also
and adding on to all that things that are happening
i shant list them out,
i have a serious problem with proritizing
and i really dunno wad to do
of coz every teacher would say that thier project is important and thier subject's homework must do
for some i really can understand, eg. chinese we are taking olevels and we are aware of the importance, so i will really complete the homework on time!
and math too, i know the problem if i dun do the homework so i'm doing it!
but for _____, i shant say wad.
we have been like doing that for years and it dosent seem to have helped me alot.
and for chinese we did the same thing and seriously when it comes to the real thing, u wun even think abt the procedure of answers that you are suppose to
thinking on your two feet is the thing that you must know how
maybe becoz of the fact that i talk alot.
ok fine,
and tell me abt newpaper articles we are not only doing new ones but also doing some that ar elike 2005, wow great.
ok.
haiz and please i can only settle one project at a time
maybe at most up to one per commitment
i am not superman
and god knows why i am always in for these proposals, zzz
its so tiring even after delegating jobs.
ya teh delegating part is.
and the explaning past is even more.
haiz part and parcel of life, ya i know
like this things dun even happen in my mom's age.
lols like wad mr ang once said: "see you all like that do, if you were in a company, dunno promote until how high ald"
to juggle all those things at one go its easier said than done.
and to drop any of them its also easier said than done.
i have to find my own shortcut
but although i am taking this shortcut
i cannot miss any of those important things that are only in the long route
find the way
when the lights are not shinning
when the sun is out
when theres like no tommorrow
when i feel like breaking down
when i dunno who to approach for help
i can say that i can hide my emotions very well
no one have seen the true me
coz i have yet to find one that i really trust/
what u said to me today, really broke my heart.
it not as easy as u think to juggle like 4 projects, grading plus academics at one go.
its not that i dun wish to help
but its that i dun even know what is happening now
and the ppl who are suppose to be involved and incharge arent
this is not suppose to happen
i feel that i should somehow or another reject this position
since i couldnt contribute as much time as u ppl can
i dun mind quiting.
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