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Saturday, August 30, 2008, 1:23 PM
BORING MORNING
Its a lazy morning, slept early woke up late. Happy 15th birthday to WY i'm lazy
good bye ms teoh! we will miss your sit ins during choir practices!
T-shirt colours! jr was practically mad overthis thing
i should go and write a book called "physick"
the amount of sushi 4 ppl ate. i only contributed less than 5 k.
Things in an overall -in-charge's pocket
Missed class reunion, mrloh trying to be funny cutting cake, well they caught u.
Action packed bball game
3/4 '08 with mrloh. msteoh and mrboay!
THe cake that those ppl left for us, thankyou, i love you 3/4!
THe great decorations, done by our class, 3/4'08 rocks forever ok those are some pics i posted out of boredom i am rly VERY bored. haiz no mood to study no energy to go out shall i venture to some where far let me think first. why do good times have to end so fast.
Friday, August 29, 2008, 6:38 PM
Teachers' Day 08
although i was scared like hell all the way until the whole thing ends evtg went out fine i wanna say thank you to all my fellow councillors for making evtg fine and excecuted out properly without you, this event would not be a success oh yes i think its rather successful although there is room for improvement but at least all the teachers were quite happy seeing them so happy and away from their stressful life makes me feel happy and a sense of satisfaction too. went to gave out the cards and gifts. went to lunched at pizzahut. talked and chatted alot. homed. some thoughts raced past my mind. i dunno why evtg is happening to me somehow, even after my big event i dun rly hav the mood to put my heart at rest. i think rly long slp to clear all my worries but somehow, they will still stay there. i dun hav the courage to take it out, can i fall into a deep slp and hope that i would nvr wake up again. this thing is killing me, and one day, i will die off quietly, forget abt the would coz theres nothing left for me to rmb.
Saturday, August 23, 2008, 11:53 PM
stressed out
Today, had PAX day not to discourage or to pour water on anyone i think this event is rather time wasting as in ya, went to mac. and had breakfast with jr, j,f,xw and wy then bused to west coast park zzz go there kena chased for being so noisy went to mac AGAIN. to do some proposal got some cute board game that we had tons of fun playing then went back to the tent eat again well ok went near the sea the breeze was great but the insects there were freaking me out went back saw ms ong she was so bored, she started captains ball i could do nothing but to catch ball but before i could even do so. someone accidentally threw the ball on my injured part so. game stopped and i think he is so guilty now. haiz dun feel so guilty/its an accident/- sat there i am also guilty for stopping the game, ya sorry. sat on the poncho. played the game again and discuss some teachers day stuff with ms ong mrtan went to play water bomb and was so wet hahas. went je then homed made some stuff and i'm so tired now. ok gdbye. i'm very sick and tired of all these. the work load is too much and i can be jack of all trades and master of evtg too. its impossible to do it, i am not invincible. and i hope i get better for the injury part, i din care when it first hurt. and now its worsen so much. if one day i could not walk anymore, will there be anyone to takecare of me? - i doubt so. i hope its all over soon
Friday, August 22, 2008, 8:13 PM
feeling sick.
yea from all the things that had been happening lols. all the way from class till end of class and what that happened after class i dun mind just being an ordinary student who just studies attends cca like once a week that is basically slacking and more. ya then i can score straight As and ya thats about it ya i WISHED. but sadly this is just NOT the case from all those stupid things after school well i bet 26th PMT has a new sign language coz we were all giving the SAME handsign after that wow. telepathy that is call the 26pmt spirit zzz go home nag by mom again hate it i hate to go home. nvm cut all this crap gtg do my thing tmr still ahv wad pax day wadeva why must we clean up the mess that u made.why must u do it even though u know u cant complete evtg. i feel like scolding vulgar but its i think its an insult to the word using it on u
Tuesday, August 19, 2008, 9:01 PM
Verge of the cliff
life has been horrible these days and for the first time in my 9 years of school life am i not wanting teachers day to come or wishing that there wasnt even such a day nvm i gotta learn how to cope with the stress but it dosent seems like i am cpoing well. what choice do i hav i know that i cannot run the whole show myself. and i dun want to either thank you jr for being there when i need u thanks for listening to me thanks for being my partner classes are the same today and i dun feel like wearing ankle guard tmr. too sian to do so. its very hot but it secures nvm shift then shift again loh i also dun care ald. these few days i dun feel like my usual self also nvm after failing so many papers and some comments i ald lose heart ald coz i think i fail majority of the subjects so wad for study. i ald fail the most basic requirement of a student haizi also dun know how. do projects also must do study also must study then how can i do EVERYTHING nvm zou yi bu, kan yi bu kan bu dao, ju suan le. lols tmr got star gg to watch movie whilke the other ppl are gg to study haiz, my time managament is terrible forget it and my ankle hurts but idun really care let it be i gtg goodbye i dun wan to face the world 没有人说要放弃我,是我放弃了我自己。
Monday, August 18, 2008, 8:52 PM
i dun wan to face the truth
half day school wasnt as great haiz got back 2 test papers today and i got F9 to both also knew who are my true friends today those whom i can trust. went for piano think i am most probably gonna fail but nvm its over pieces are ok aural is__-- scales and appegios arent that good either sight reading i think i will get 0? nvm its all over prepare harder for the next one went back to school to discuss some stuff then went to sc room to slack and plan teachers day stuff jingrui told me something which i told myself not to believe but in the end i did and i want to thank jingrui for doing that dun worry i wun hav hatred towards anyone i have lost my motivation to study in any aspects i dun even wish to touch my books now let alone revise for any crap like EOY next year will only hav 16 sec 4 stars coz i will be out... i have lost my motivation to study, and i dun wan to face the truth, the truth is 1 sentence that you said to me, can affect so much, you didnt know how much, and will never do, but you really brokeheart. and left a deep but there. i felt the pain more than my shifted ankle bone. i can feel it in my heart.one year ago in the same common test, i hav 6 As but now, i ald have 2 F9s, a few more wun matter.
Saturday, August 16, 2008, 10:17 PM
Smiles.
found this nice poem while i was surfing the net and since i am planning teachers day heres a short poem for all teachers out there its pretty nice
WHY GOD CREATED TEACHERS. When God created teachers, He gave us special friends To help us understand His world And truly comprehend The beauty and the wonder Of everything we see, And become a better person With each discovery.
When God created teachers, He gave us special guides To show us ways in which to grow So we can all decide How to live and how to do What's right instead of wrong, To lead us so that we can lead And learn how to be strong.
Why God created teachers, In His wisdom and His grace, Was to help us learn to make our world A better, wiser place.
~Author Unknown~
8:31 PM
Pain.
went for meeting cum cip today met JR at 745 to go mac and take my last toy, yeahs ate hotcakes with a weird combination of jam, syrup and margerine then wen to school for meeting ended while walking i tripped over a lil curb. and OUCH. good thing it didnt start acting like on the spot bused to jp slacked awhile before the whole thing started Mr loh came and mark attendence and he looks like a security guard. hahas teased him abit then proceeded with cip partner with vivian. went to bus interechange and started selling maybe my luck was a lil better today. sold finish quite soon at bout 1230. sold collarpins, hp straps and notebooks/ viv wa rather pissed by those ppl who ignored her and so was everyone else oh my at least smile and say no then pretend that we are non-existent hello i know its the 7th month but dun treat us like ghost can. then went to makan as i walk i finally felt the pain. ohmygod, its very pain and homed slept, so tried. then went to see tieda thanks to my ankle. so terrible the sinseh say the bone shift place din know that i was so pro. walk also can walk until like that zzz. put some medcine and bandage... sian, and still must put ankle guard. zzz thu still must play soccer. assesment some more lols how to kick/ and its right leg. nvm commontests are over and i am so happy but more things are coming ... sian ok bb tired. scared. nervous
Friday, August 15, 2008, 9:17 PM
tired, very
everyday when i wake up and open my eyes till the time i close them there are thoughts running about everywhere and anywhere they want i cant stopped them even when i am to control them common tests are over and i dun even want to talk abt them my targets are passes and an A for combined humanities, thats all. i got my my emaths common test paper i passed, miraculously my class has 28 A1s out of which 4 full marks and i just got a C6, i am not exactly elated nor dissapointed the feeling is numb ppl cry when they get my marks and some ppl are not happy with an A1 its true that i have low expectations and everyone has different i have no feelings at all except the eating chocolates part=.= why am i like that i dun even feel dissapointed at all with no dissapointment, how is this going to push me further i dunno wads wrong with me and wads going on in my brain nvm that after school i thinki was very tired i din ahd the mood for anything i plugged in. and slept. for half an hour choir is just a sian word and i even said that if _____ were to come in i would step out of the room immediately can say that i am relatively quiet today debrief i din talk also setteled the t shirts things now only gotta ask msseeto that one shall go to the nicole side. i am not going to talk that person and i dun even want to see her ftheace oh pls the thought of the scene when she ask me why i nvr join other cca just broke my heart. i should have rebutted her sentence but i chose to keep silent keeping silence is the best way to not prolong a meeting. and i was so angry so now whenever before choir. i just feel like crying i also dunno why i think that i am not up to the standard of becoming a good vice chair at times i wondered if i am a good director and as i even fit to be a star scholar ased on results definetely not perhaps attitude yes and star camp rocks all the way!!! yes i love it and i dun mind planning it=) i have lots of ideas since mskoh give me the idea and its cool!! oops its suppose to be confidential but its exciting more exciting then any other of my events hahas thats what i think lah and star is the only thing i din regret joining at all and thus i did not regret coming to jurong ok piano exam on monday i am so scared i got my 1045 dismissal yeah i'm so happy it would be a great day for me to skip lessons some redundant ones skip also nvm ok tmr still got cip meeting jr for breakfast. and then gg meeting at school lols is so stupid i need to go to sch for a meeting when my cip is at jp which is like 3 mins from my hse. /?!! lols nvm gd bye i'm gone! take a syringe and pump air in to a vein, confirmed death. 希望到底存在吗?人生这场马拉松值得我去跑吗?
Thursday, August 14, 2008, 8:39 PM
Sun is below, Air molecules everywhere, Wind is all around
sometimes stupid answers can be quite right, yes, that stupid answer, i wrote it for geog's CFU, and i got a tick with a comment that i should elaborate more but the point is i dun even know how to do the question so i just crap smth out and poor jingrui who wrote a paragraph long got a comment "pls approach me for clarifications" i was laughing like mad coz thats the most ridiculous answer i've written haha common tests were all a disaster with the exception of ss and hist yes they are the light to my report card and most propably the more environmentally friendly ones without underline and save more ink=.= coz my other subjects are really GONE CASE forget it and work hard for a better tmr, yeah right had my last piano before exam 2 hours. i hope i 've got everthing in my head i'm really VERY scared. i hope i can leave before recess. i hope. need time to reach home and play my piano ONE LAST TIME> yes really argh... common test really suck and the seating arrangement actl sitting behind is also quite good. i dun get called. to answer qns. that is a good thing and i can slack and do wadeva i want and the teacher dun even care that is a good sign and hooray ppl tmr theres no english CHEERS. yes it that celebrative, not aggressive at all i'm sorry that i was abit carrid away during the discussion sorry. and so sry if i arouse any misunderstandings. yes i got my reply during pe. haiz but sometimes... i kinda pity her. but then,,, nvm shant care abt such things if i gonna care abt evtg i can be superman ald. thought the ___ thingy is rather successful yes i cant wait for mon. yes the later part, not the exam part. exam part, excited? no way, more like excited to finish it tweleve minutes, set a good impression, get a pass haha, not that easy the previous days common test was said to be easy by many. and really i wun be sad if i get very low or be very un-environmentally friendly as there would be alot of ink wasted on the underlines. zzz. today. pe, tennis mini zz i'm terrible at it for the behind part only jr and wy could de it i practically but in to other ppls lane and everywhere else OUT of my lane, yeah. then had maths bearings erm not bad could deal it with some common sense of direction phy practical if this thing ever comes out during olvl spa i thinki will not only fail but go MAD. the balancing its even harder then chem's balancing equation maths AGAIN... did some dunno wad meter, kinda cool, but i find no link so. nvm,,,,, period prior to test was hilarious. haha zz. the enhancement part esp. then the test skip this part its terrible. meeting the attendence was not that bad but its not that great either lah. haha nvm went to mac. again.. so cold. like they keeping penguins or polars there open my physics tys got a big shock thanks to that pink cat. omg, 7th month see this kinda thing is .. the pink cat really look like some devil. zzz, ya but thx for the encouragement, not forgetting the shock, went home practised piano then went for my 2 hr piano end of day tmr physics. last paper great. like finally i can get everyone to work out the teachers day thing. i hope to print the prog flow for them soon hahas. ok gotta practice piano and study for that physick, ya physick. sick sick sick
Tuesday, August 12, 2008, 7:26 PM
blast furnance
yes thats what i feel like right now no matter what they say, we would always be wrong and they would always be right what have we got to say you even asked why didnt i join another cca, yes i would LOVE too. and because of this, dun blame me for my lack of enthusiasm during cca display i dun even love my cca, and it totally sucks. i wun want any of the juniors to suffer the same fate as us wadeva u say would be right and what should i say. nvm if i say anything more i would only prolong the stupid meeting. and wad do parents understand nothing teachers, even worse dun tok abt the ftsc. i think i can even be a better one. i cant think of anything now i feel like just handing in blank scripts tmr. i would get an F9 anyway i rather spend my time sleeping then thinking of how to do it but i know i dun have the courage to do it u may understand anything but i am sure u complained bout this before why cant ppl be more flexible. things are suppose to change for the better and not let wrong things go wrong somemore i will never scold my juniors if they ever followed my footsteps. tell me, if i am not gg to be any kind of professional singer in the future, what has singing help anyway i'm nvr gg to be one after the wonderful memories i left in choir i think besides camps i only cried less then 5 times in sch and i think 3 of them are due to choir ya thanks for letting my cry my heart out. thanks alot perhaps we are not as clever as you ppl but i can assure you that if u are in my shoes u would be thinking the same way as me but u are not and u nvr will and so just shut up and back off i dun mind if u strip my post. i am strong in my stand and i know what i am doing come to think of it again if the cca is relaxing and interesting why would anyone want to skip it so much, whether isit a valid reason or not take a turn and make a change change for the better and not let it be stationary foreva if u dun dare to take ur stand that time and say what u really want then its really your problem its not someting abt commitment or prioritising its called, not leaving any regrets for the actions u have done perhaps u din have any but sorry, i do want any for my case as well so if u dun hav sc, star, studies, cca, piano all in one then shut up and back off, coz u hav no say in my life and i dun wish to listen and further worse for another one bet u din even hav all these in your time teachers are ald hard to find and come on u ppl are busy and so are we. i am only fifteen dun expect too much from me this is not call rebellious this is called taking my stand forget it this will nvr change and choir will NEVER be popular. coz________ 这场马拉松赛太累了,我可以不要在跑了吗? 休息是为了走更长远的路,及时才能到我休息呢?现在压力已把我透的喘不过气来,有谁可以理解我的心情,给我一双玲听的耳朵,一个温暖的肩膀。
Sunday, August 10, 2008, 11:14 PM
it can be done.
Some pics i hav for the past 3 months? enjoy. (in no apparent order)
i'll be there when the world stops turning..
familiar eh, but this is in genting. i din go anywhere further then that.
me and mom infront of the hotel,
me and SJ, Musical VIP USHERS!! hahas loads of fun and laughter thanks buddy,
tiger and bear living harmoniously tgt
hmm, they left out the word team, hahas, PMT rocks=)
Lets take a break shall we?
26th Student Council all the way!
Sing to the dawn 2nd edition, sing to the stars
DOMO SHALL INVADE AND RULE THE EARTH!
some random pics from my phone, managed to find the way to use my bluetooth port and bought my ink today so happy MY PRINTERS BACK! /and better then ever, well that was crap. but at least its working i shall study chemistry and math tmr and buy chars present of coz shall meet jr tmr. and decide on my journey shall mark out my agenda also at least i know wad to do, for the next week every week is like a lap in my never ending marathon and i havent even seen my stop yet. haiz grandmas living in aunts hse peace is what i get at home but not on my phone hahas life cannot be perfect ya shall continue my time plan of studying tmr bb
Friday, August 8, 2008, 9:39 PM
welcome
hahas, grats ppl for guessing the right thing to to get here hahas basically its either #1 - u are smart , #2 - u are lame or #3 - i told u my url hahas nice joke for everyone lols ok but its abit lame lahs, changed url due to various reasons oh pls dun ask probably coz i want to relieve more stress here by throwing out my crashed testtubes zzz school was. today ss. erm, as usual chem. same same loh maths. math test results AS USUAL, i failed AGAIN. well nvm and some ppl can get full marks=.= well dumb ppl like me will fail hahas then recess did some stuff,. phy, handed in report the only thing i contributed was something that is not exactly relevant at all. and i also can conclude that i will nvr take tablet 11 and orange lan cables. after school maths test almost wanted to jiao bai juan but didnt too much time wrote a whole lot of crap and surprisingly 99% of the ppl that i tok to dk what is jiaobaijuan. lols. met ms seeto while waiting was emo-ing with my 2x2x2 by chance i solved it again and some great ppl kindly scrambled it for me THANKS have a great time solving it this weekend but dun dismantle pls. yea when to imm with gonggong hahas so nice to call. hahas walked till quite late dad came. then homed.
i am in a dilemma now, someone tell me what to do, someone guide my way please. life is ironic
Tuesday, August 5, 2008, 10:15 PM
physics or physick.
lols i think the latter sounds more like it the test was like.... omg another sure fail in like 1 week and come on its only like the second day of the week yes i've only taken 2 tests this week and i would hav like a whole STRING of them next week! GREAT yes my DEAR grading is coming right up and yes finally after much hard work, i am able to play all my 3 pieces, like a song and not excerpts from here and there great actl from the i think i will sure fail phase to the i think i can pass phase, its been a great improvement hahas yea this is called self motivation well wadeva haiz i am so tired its half way through the week hurrays just a few more days to the long weekends yes and i would hav to clear my subject's homework and revise one by one just decided that my after school hours should hav some timetable as well. and today is the 2nd day i've been following the plan and it seem rather good yes once again edgerton is a total crap and i feel that if i continue taking his lessons i would be just wasting my time, in trying to DECIPHER what the heck he is trying to bring across yes decipher, not understand if i cant even get what he's saying, how can i understand he should better off go back to west Virginia and it looks like the the thing he finds most interesting here is detention detention seems to be the only thrill he has in teaching DETENTION<>DETENTION lols he seems to hav so much spare time to spend in the CAFETERIA with us to finish up every single piece of work ya he's just great how to complete his work when we dun understand his lesson and thank god he is just teaching us half a subject if he ever teaches any chem ,phy or geog we can all prepare to be exterminated by the examinations english was. haiz, as wonderful as ever it has been like that ever since what to do and stupid compo that i did can get 18 marks thats a joke man break slacked geog yes we played music and nxt door asked us to turn down the volume as they were having float out lols that day we were having a test and u ppl were singing all genres of songs like it was singfest? and u ppl were merily blasting your voices during our test and mind u we were also having float out not just u and after ur float outs while we were still having ours u ppl made so much noise again our shutup to u guys was really part of out kindness history - choir haiz, i keep forgetting to do things nvm i shall do them tmr councillors nomination well i do hav some ppl in mind hahas i rly hope there are some councillors this year and hopefully a few stars next year choir stuff gotta settle settle settle arghs when should i do all those things haiz at least i am having a more structed after school life now great reached home ate, bathed and i sorted out one subj today physics, yes the qns are really driving me mad, and i dunno how to do alot of them actually but at least i sat down and did that sick subject for 2 1/2 hours of that sick physick. oh gawd. did pmt stuff and now choir ok i'm done packing bag now yes tmr pc no assembly YEAH!
Monday, August 4, 2008, 8:53 PM
accomplishment
RAINBOW CONNECTION Kermit the Frog Why are there so manySongs about rainbows And what's on the other side Rainbow's are visions They're only illusions And rainbows have nothing to hide So we've been told and some chose toBelieve it But I know they're wrong wait and see Someday we'll find it The Rainbow Connection The lovers, the dreamers and me Who said that every wish Would be heard and answered When wished on the morning star Somebody thought of that And someone believed it And look what it's done so far What's so amazing That keeps us star gazing What so we think we might see Someday we'll find it That Rainbow Connection The lovers the dreamers and me Have you been half asleep And have you heard voices I've heard them calling my name Are these the sweet sounds that called The young sailors I think they're one and the sameI 've heard it too many times to ignore it There's something that I'm supposed to be Someday we'll find it The Rainbow Connection The lovers, the dreamers and me i did many things that i nvr did before today the day started off with a pmt meeting tgt with dear secretary and ms ong oh wad a wonderful start for a brand new day=.= went to class, edgerton = i dunno wad on earth is is talking abt, trying to do, hope he get lost soon = free chatting session yea were happily chatting with table mates nxt, geog did some quick test revision oh great,his lessons were rly great, but that dosent mean i understand but well, at least i din sleep explained some stuff using phy, erm sry, but most of the answers were crap. i shall try to read up more before next time english the ALL TIME FAVOURITE ok at least class was released on time today cheers for that went back to class. chemistry mrsnair was damn early.? ok heard vp was coming but in the end nvr thats a goodthing watched the rainbow connection! its so cool lols i think if we do it during open hse it would attract alot of ppl=) heres the link/ www.youtube.com/watch?v=lCrMB8341rU ok moving on to maths ok i hate maths zzz. no understanding plu no interest plus zero confidence = gone case (yea my balancing eqn skills rocks) chinese ... after that 3/4 showed its unity again ya lols but it was not our fault i dun understand how come teachers can be late and they dun get scolded and how come they expect us to be punctual when they are the masters of lateness. its crap man and we get scoled when we are late what crap is that and they probably say that they are very busy for the reason of being late but hello!, we are also busy their time is time and out time is not? oh well. i was abit of vulgar today sry jr having to telerate my nonsense but nvm the whole class had the same reaction to this incident but anyway i dun think its very worth it so lets keep that to ourselves the compre test was a killer nvm its over after that had another short meeting with pmt. and i gotta set a date and duration for meetin but advices from ms genius says that a good meeting should be around half an hour but the next line that came was, i had nvr had a good meeting=.= ok. thats was wonderful and wise words from the genius ate at mac one more cup and 2 more toy to go and i dunthink i gonna eat mac for like another months ok gotta go study for physics.
you asked me if i am too overwhelmed, and i asked u wad awas overwhelmed, you answered me saying that it means a overflowing cup. i said, i am a cup filled with coke to the brim, and you just added a mentos in it.
Saturday, August 2, 2008, 9:16 PM
年少时候
细水长流 年少时候 谁没有梦 无意之中 你将心愿透露 就在你生日的时候 我将小小口琴送 最难忘记 你的笑容 友情的细水慢慢流 流到了你我的心中曾在球场边为你欢呼 你跌伤我背伏夜里流星飞渡 想像着他日的路途 晚风听着我们壮志无数 年少时候 谁没有愁 满腔愤慨 唯有你能听得懂每当我失意的时候 我将那首歌吹奏 琴声悠悠 解我轻忧 岁月的细水慢慢流 流到了别离的时候轻拍你的肩 听我说朋友不要太惆怅霓陉纵然再嚣张 我你的步履有方向 成败不论去莫将昔日遗忘 多年以后 又再重逢 我们都有了疲倦的笑容问一声我的朋友 何时再为我吹奏 是否依旧 是否依旧 人生的际遇千百种 但有知心长相重人愿长久 水愿长流 年少时候 its an old song, but its quite nice rly hahas rather lazy to post frequently i think the big problem that lies wiht me is not knowing how to manage my time well. i shall do that and be motivated to study more sians i think i'll be gg to the lib to study tmr coz i rly cant study at home i will lose my concentration and peace oh gawd, why cant i have some peace at home ok when theres a will theres a way and the way is to go to lib and study. and i shall ask if anyone wants to go study with me tmr, this week has been hectic and i dun suppose nxt week would be any better anyway i still think weekdays are better than weekends
wtf, dun expect to much frm us that stp proj came frm u ppl and dun expect us to hav the standard that u ppl had u ppl din hav to do 2 proj at that time and 2 major ones so dun be so angry and keep saying that u think our long prep time is ridiculous and u also din hav as many things as us u hav 7 ppl in your team and i only hav 4 our results are not as bombastic too. i hav no exp in this, this is ridiculous want it to be perfect get it done urself/
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