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Thursday, December 31, 2009, 9:52 PM
end of 2009
ITS THE END OF 2009:( - many things happened that i will nvr forget.done with 10 years of basic education, and moving on soon. approx 12 days to results release. i rmbed the 4 F9s i had during CT1 this year, the yellow compulsory meet the parents form i got. GE1 5 C5s a wonderful scolding from many ppl. perhaps a wake up call. i really did study but perhaps not in the right direction. really want to thank mrloh for always believing that i really studied and can do better. esp in physics. i hope to get my desired o'lvl results. and really hope that i can give him a physics A1 as the best thankyou gift ever.
i stepped down both in CCA and council as well as STAR.
CCA, from this 4 years i think the only thing i learnt is to be more careful in making impt decisions like choosing your cca. sad to say i did not really enjoy my cca period, with exception my batch mates, certain seniors and juniors, mslam for a little while and ms teoh, others no. esp all the mad crying before and after SYF not that i am nonchalent or wad bt.. nvm. an important lesson learnt that i will rmb for life.
council was where i learnt most of my things, the opportunities i had to learn how to be a leader. i will nvr forget my PMT, our teachers day08 with jr, grad lunch with pteam, eUreka with kelly, those mad ikea trips where ppl look at what we bought like we were aliens that decended, mad screwing of boxes when we collected the forms, laughter when we read some of them, and the many many many proposals we did and submitted. the mad coordinations with many teachers, a pleasant exp where i've learnt alot. thank you to mr tan and ms ong.
STAR, many enrichment courses many fun with my batch, shanghai, IQ camp, sabbatical, projects after sabbatical. late stays in school, visit to halfway house, alumni dinner we all used to dread, the outreach talks we crapped out. the never forgottened ideas in action where i met the most wonderful project mentor. the champion umbrella case! i will never forget this great prog, not just about the free stuff bt more of the exp i've gained. the scoldings from ms koh that were for our own good. she meant well haha. one for all and all for one. a good lesson that creates the bond within us.
working life has been rather ok. i took the jobs to kill time anyways and to get xmas gifts for ppl. i learnt alot from working. like studying is better i sumpa. popular job trains my muscles and keeps me at 24 and 44 kg.=.= i think i exercise and carry more than i eat. double shifts is tough tough and i want it to end badly. very tired. 730 to 10 kills ppl. tired x 100000 earning money is not easy...
family life. a topic i seldom talk abt. sometimes i really wanted to forgive but its hard. like what i read before career, friends, family, health are all crystal balls, once shattered it can nvr be pieced back to original again. i suppose wad he left me will be a permanent scar. it healing bt the scar will always be there.
today wanted to make passport bt to no avail. then went to meet yb and js to get their ic zaps. went to sy house to hav steamboat:D played stress, mahjong, cheat and uno, fun actl wanted to overnight bt... went to safra to find friend and left for home. my countdowns are always alone, sat at my lift lobby stairs to send msg before i went home. i would nvr understand certain things, how these adults think. i cant wait till i am 21. i am 16 and ya i know i dun look 16 or else the counter wouldnt have to like ask 3 times how old am i=.=. freedom. what is freedom, i hope 2010 would be a better year, i dread school posting, bt it will come anyway no matter wad. lets leave it to fate.
happy new year everyone
Saturday, December 26, 2009, 9:56 PM
paper planes
run. fly. believe.
time flies, under 20 days to results release i suppose. chirstmas's over and new yeas's coming, 2010. i dk wad tmr may bring.
work work, driving my muscle tissues crazy. carried stuff like HELL. without those guys today is rly Ohmygoodness. saw many sights of life that also serves as a pre warning to me for the future. **A note to guys out there**
please, for goodness pls dun go to your child's bookshop and complain like an aunty over minor issues like the names of the exercise book printed on the book list. yes single line green book and green graph book do sound abit diff bt they ARE the same thing. and the SAME PRICE. i agree that its abit dumb that the booklist splits the same item in two when its the same bt the thing is if its under one item u ppl will still buy wadeva quatity stated right. and for goodness sake ur child is only SEC ONE. it is highly impossible that he/she cannot use finish the graph books. and worse still one book only ONE DOLLAR!. GOD pls, dun so aunty, mid 30s-40s ald nag over this kind of thing. and worse still others. use ur calculator, wear your specs, look and count carefully the price before u claim that there is a error. dun call and complain that there is calculation error where there ISNT ANY. worse still talk abt compensation of transport fees here. no one will chase u out of the school if u want to check and clarify and mathematical problems with ur receipt. i suggest that u get an extra calculator and change ur specs too. and for goodness sake dun come and talk rubbish wasting resources like electricity talking and complaining when its ur own carelessness. to all ppl out there.yes i may nt be the best mathematician to calculate the price of ur books but EXCEL is nvr wrong(if it is, the microsoft wouldnt have sold so many copies and came up with so many edition.)
PS. this note to guys why? because all those ppl who complained abt these stuff ARE ALL GUYS. worse than aunties. not siding with my gender bt this is the truth. complain abt $1 and some few cents. i think ur complain call costs more=.=/
this job really lets me sees the world from another perspective and apparently some ppl just ruin my image of guys being more gentlemen and less naggy, more generous, god am i so wrong. i certainly hope those ppl i know and have a rather good impression of wun be like those ppl above. day after day do i see those uncles coming to complain and complain. irritating. over $1 stuff. that when i call TG! dk wads wrong with them. earning money is hard i know, bt being such a customer u are not only making the lifes of ppl harder and potraying to others ur so oh-my- are- you-a-real-man side.
SIGH what has singapore education system become, teaching ppl to be so jing jing ji jiao.
today went KTV, my first time. haha damn ex,. all i can say. anyway,
HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST RACHEL:D
Sunday, December 20, 2009, 6:50 PM
hoping, wishing, imagining.
An ADVANCED merry christmas to all:D
BON VOYAGE to RACH! flown tonight. sigh.. i am still in singapore, like after many promised to bring me overseas after o's none rly came true. in this world promises are meant to be broken. guess i could only go overseas by my own nxt time. SIGHHH.. SAD. i wan go overseasD:
Every cloud had a silver lining.. i've seen it and trying to believe it.
candlelight service today! pretty!
My candle. shinning brightly
went to many many many places after's (apprently all singapore) and took trees after trees. orchard central's
Taka's, i saw mrs jacq ng with her kidson one of my trips there coincidental meet! haha i miss school too SIGH...
i forgot where this one came frm, maybe marina barrage.
JP's closesest to home LOL.
Parco bugis's white christmas:D
this one's pretty too, shinning, glimmering, SK's at bugis parco too
frontier's tree, took when i went for some dental crap. think this is the worst looking check out the last one
the CUTEST, along orchard road. tree dress totally LOL>
the one i see EVERYDAY its BESIDE me haha.working working working everyday, i missed those days of camps(ok not exactly), gatherings, chalet and you must think i am crazy, i miss school too, SIGHHH... working is nt exactly great bt i enjoy more of those gathering and playing with friends. SIGH.
started taking double shifts from mon, 3 days consecutive can make one die. tired like hell. thu dead beat, even though no double shift. had fun working with freida, theresa, yb, jr, jinsze,wy and more. haha popular big gang. LOL. double shifts is TIRING
17.1
time flies really. so fast. twent odd more days to results release and the difficult choices. its gg to be hard.
hoping for the slightest chance, but it seemed like we are not meant to be. i got GPA not especially happy, just thankful to mrloh esp. havent got wad i really wanted yet, something that i really wanted on top of anything else. monetory wise its exactly the same as GPA bt the feeling is just different, my mom says i am mad and i could just give her the money for GPA and she help me write the E- word. the feeling is just diff that others might not understand. hearing others get is a joy and a pain, congratulating those who got, nt trying to defame, bt AHHH. nvm. i'm sure god most likely has other plans for me. SIGHHS again.
its the season to be jolly, however i feel rather misplaced. i missed what i used to have, but shall cherish what i have today.
live life the fullest
smile more, love the world and put a smile on someone's face today:)
Saturday, December 12, 2009, 11:32 PM
the most important thing in life
what is the most important thing in life?materials?
love?
or just a plain simple smile that spreads across one's face each day?
this holiday may be boring and seemingly longer than usual but the off load from studies suddenly loaded in some other issues that seems forgottened when u are in the long run of preparing for the cruel elimination exams.
kids scolding parents for asking them if they want chocolate?
parents being shouted at asking their kids if they want to buy correction tape?
what is wrong with the world?
what has modern day education done to our present generation
perhaps i just find it hard to accept the unchangable cruelity of humanitarian.
i saw a man eating alone in a restaurant, he orders most probably the most expensive dish in the restaurant. he has the means, bt he is lonely, he drinks alone, then sleeps after seeing how the dished is whipped up, and take away the rest of it. he foots the bill and wanted to leave even before the take away is prepared. the only thing is there is no sign of happiness on his face. and i heard he does that rather often, why is life so cruel. why didnt god give him any friends that he can confide in.
questions abt life came upon me like an avalanche of snow, probably qns that none can answer.
the most important thing in life to me, is the ability to let a smile spread across my face each day. make someone smile today.
Saturday, December 5, 2009, 8:15 PM
negative?
i wish i wish i wish, there was a jab that i can take so i would always be healthy
tired tired
super tired of all the insect bites, headaches, flu. etc. antibiotics, i ate such a wide spectrum till i can recognise them, curam, amocla, i know their names.
baked today:D
marshmallow treats and bread?! hahah first time made bread and it was nt bad bt no mixer is mix until hand pain haha but had loads of fun with yb and sj!.
tired tired tired. flu for whole day... super tired.
thank god i'm nt working. bt i will be hah
i pray to god that my hand gets better! nt like one after another:(
ok need to rest now!
skating on mon!:D
Wednesday, December 2, 2009, 10:41 PM
怀念
if only time was in my contol. i will freeze it there forever.seriously i so much prefer the life before holidays, the friends at school. madness in studying for tests, exams. teachers nagging and nagging about how our result totally CMI and how near o's is. how we celebrated the end of our first and second GEs at sentosa and east coast. how we watched the korea show..(even though nt very entertaining) and ate xinwang. how we struggled through the ASAP times. those stacks and stacks of worksheets. i missed all those. wished i could have those times back. not enjoying my holiday.
saw some disturbing pages on the net. should ppl be less objective about certain stuff? i really do not know what to do. 曾经拥有，好过从来没有。但是一但失去了，人们都希望这一切只是一场噩梦。
2/1 CG
bored. my hand injured cant do bbq-ing. can't play, nothing to play also. do everything with left hand. almost died. on bus ppl look until like they nvr see ppl injure hand in their life before.thanks alot of yb for the help. paid 7.50 ate 1 fishball, 1 crabstick, 3 satay and 2 cups of drink oh ya and 3 marshmallows haha. ok it was a get tgt. at least we get to chat. everyone was practically talking abt work and jobs. thats the life after o's i guess and the life that i have yet to get used to. thanks for everything 2/1.
this holiday i learnt how hard it is to earn money. how stupid ppl take photo without ur permission causes you to have trauma thereafter. i learnt that there is such things called job agents. i learnt that its so much better to study. i learnt that i have changed my view of how i hate holidays.
thanks for everything.